Beginnings

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Oh LORD, I saw last night something I am

considering in light of bigger love. 

With help of doctors, ultrasound exam-

inations, Mum & Dad know more, above

what could be known by their small child inside

the tum of Mum, who's sheltered it so far,

and Dad who cares for both, and would provide

for any needs they have, where they both are.

They know this little chap, his bladder full,

and function of his heart, and penis length,

and nothing in their knowledge of him  will

convince them not to focus all their strength

to help him to develop as befits

the son of t'other one, who is beloved,

besotted with their child, they care for its

development as though it hadn't  shoved

it's way into their lives to use them up.

They let themselves be spent with love's delight

in pouring their own lives out from the cup

of their united purpose, day & night

to join with one another, and with God

to image love's own creativity

and giving-ness, in ways that would seem odd

if all creative love's activity

could not be fully trusted to provide

what's really necessary for all life

from its conception till it has arrived,

outside, when life takes off, and it's more rife!

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LORD, you have examined me and you know me. You know everything I do; from far away you understand all my thoughts. You see me, whether I am working or resting; you know all my actions. Even before I speak, you already know what I will say. You are all round me on every side; you protect me with your power. Your knowledge of me is too deep; it is beyond my understanding. Where could I go to escape from you? Where could I get away from your presence? If I went up to heaven, you would be there; if I lay down in the world of the dead, you would be there. If I flew away beyond the east or lived in the farthest place in the west, you would be there to lead me, you would be there to help me. I could ask the darkness to hide me or the light round me to turn into night, but even darkness is not dark for you, and the night is as bright as the day. Darkness and light are the same to you. You created every part of me; you put me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because you are to be feared; all you do is strange and wonderful. I know it with all my heart. When my bones were being formed, carefully put together in my mother's womb, when I was growing there in secret, you knew that I was there — you saw me before I was born. The days allotted to me had all been recorded in your book, before any of them ever began. O God, how difficult I find your thoughts; how many of them there are! If I counted them, they would be more than the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you. O God, how I wish you would kill the wicked! How I wish violent people would leave me alone! They say wicked things about you; they speak evil things against your name. O LORD, how I hate those who hate you! How I despise those who rebel against you! I hate them with a total hatred; I regard them as my enemies. Examine me, O God, and know my mind; test me, and discover my thoughts. Find out if there is any evil in me and guide me in the everlasting way. Psalms 139:1‭-‬24 GNBDC

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