2026-02-04

….given for you* - (three…


...trees in garden paradise….)



“You feed them” he had said before, to his

disciples when the “many” came to find

out if he smelled of Yahweh’s ways, & biz-

nus, though his message spoke what’s on God’s mind.


And then he’d turned those words into a truth,

by breaking down the process into bits

bite-sized, and then by feeding them in cooth, though fam’ly ways (when they just “got the shits”).


Cash seems the bottom line, but it is not.

When things come to a point, don't look for it.

In this case, look for food. And count the lot.

And bring it back to me. I’ll do this bit.


Since you have not, just yet, grown up enough 

to mean it, when you’re tired, feel unfulfilled,

full of yourself (you don’t sustain, taste tough).

I’ll show it to the God, we’ll trust he willed


for us to not just die here, now, and thank

him for his own provisioning, as he

sees fit to make it work. He is our bank.

And river bank, to walk along as we


in cool of eve’ning, take time to rethink

on days we've seen, and what they’ll mean ahead,

Beside the waters stilled enough to drink.

He gives the bits to them to give. All fed!


And so they really do feed them themselves.

And still he takes the metaphore some more.

As God’s the Father who  wants strength & health…

so we as nursing mother have our chore!



u*  Mark 6; Mark 8; Mark 14; Luke 9; Luke 22; Matt 14; Matt 15; Matt 26; John 6; 1Cor 11.
o* John 5:19; 8:29,38,47

2026-02-03

….given for you* - (2…


...redeem many….)



“You feed them” he had said before, to his

disciples when the “many” came to find

out if he smelled of Yahweh’s ways, & biz-

nus*, as his message spoke what’s on his mind.


And as he’d also warned them much about

Messiah being king in godly way -

not as the kings of this world use their pow’r

to “make” folk do their bidding, to display


the universe within their head that has 

the top dog getting all the best treatment;

but as a king of God’s musical jazz

get’s written notes as records - they’re not meant


to justify, or be the only play

we have with notes and tunes and riffs & song.

His melodies unbidden come to say

“Can I please help more goodness come along?”


And riffs are heard and played with, echoed on,

a band of good musicians learn to hear

potentialities for righting wrong,

or what’s been left behind, it loves to cheer!


And give their bit to make an offering

to all the people who might love to build

up humans, who are creatures who can sing.

Sometimes a chord is struck. No one is killed.


But sometimes in this world, as it is still,

there comes a one embodying the muse,

and antipathic forces as they will

must seem to win, before they really lose.


u*  Mark 6; Mark 8; Mark 14; Luke 9; Luke 22; Matt 14; Matt 15; Matt 26; John 6; 1Cor 11.
s* John 5:19; 8:29,38,47

2026-02-02

….given for you* - (1…


...for the many….)



“You feed them” he had said before, to his

disciples when there’s “many” who had come

some distance looking hopeful of some biz-

nus indicating heavens’ presence. Some 


(or nearly all?), of these many then sat

at his insistence in rough groups where they

felt right at home with God’s green grass as mat

near lake-side, kids came back from swimming hey!


He takes the food available, they found,

and looking up to heaven, blesses God,

as Abraham’s descendants on the ground

would do each meal, for all the food they got.


He doesn't take for granted food and drink,

nor think that all exists to serve his needs;

but just as parents work & as they think,

he’s here to serve. It’s God’s word that he heeds.


The word of truth and love that thinks and serves,

and mother-like, whose body is the home

for unborn child, as bones,  muscles and nerves 

are growing to enable life to come,


and after birth her body is the source

of food & drink she offers to her child,

and helps it to imbibe and suck of course

because that way they bond in way that’s styled


as love and care. But in this case he lets

disciples (students/ children) be involved

and gives the food to them, to feed who gets

it, miracles of God* are then evolved. 


u*  Mark 6; Mark 8; Mark 14; Luke 9; Luke 22; Matt 14; Matt 15; Matt 26; John 6; 1Cor 11.
d* John 5:19; 8:29,38,47

2026-01-31

….given for you*….


(life offered …)



“You feed them” he had said before, to them,

two times when there were “many” who had come,

a distance looking hopefully to when

they might be healed and wholely welcomed. Some 


(or nearly all?), of these who served him well

responded that their stash of cash could not

extend to feeding so many, (I smell

some competition) - but his heart’s been got..


at. 'gets them looking, more simply, for “food”

(their cup can be filled up from lake, a lot).

Their stash of cash ignored (not to be rude),

their first task is “find out how much you’ve got”.


And then he leads the way, in thanking God!

In blessing the creator who sustains

us ev’ry day through food and friends. This spot

in time and place he’s using as he trains


them into partnering with such a One,

and reminiscent of the wilderness..

their wanderings in tribal  stories come

to wondering what God just did to bless..


them with some food and cups of drink.

Sustaining them with “what was that?” - that stuff.

And how that worked, and formed, and fed? I think

he wanted trust and wonder, not just “tough”


word-definitions, mechanisms and

containing it within our model worlds.

He watched what God would do*, to understand

how life might be sustained where they’d been hurled.


u*  Mark 6; Mark 8; Mark 14; Luke 9; Luke 22; Matt 14; Matt 15; Matt 26; John 6; 1Cor 11.
o* John 5:19; 8:29,38,47

2026-01-29

KEEP YOUR NERVE*!


(tuned into your head*)



My feelings are all over the shop Lord,

I just about feel cowered down to Hell.

The tiling under house is getting bored

with so slow changes; car’s not doing well.


We haven’t learned to keep things going and

we’ve specialised in our small tiny bits,

so there’s not many who can understand

the big picture who doesn’t pick at nits.


Though “pick at nits” is just what must be done,

if things are very lousy round about.

Not “pick at knits” which though it may be fun,

unravels much hard work and leads to doubt


of whether it was worth the effort, and

leaves lots of strands which have to be disposed

of - somewhere, or they trip you - understand?

We need your wisdom fresh from you, enclosed


in flesh and blood, so we can interact

with it and also be a conduit for 

it in your world, as you planned so, in fact

I choose to never live apart, ignore 


it. Wisdom is my need, I need to know

not just an answer, but approach to take

and how things work. It doesn’t always show. 

But how & who to ask? What cake to bake?


I now recall 2 Peter*, & old James*:

& “ev’rything that’s necessary for 

our lives on Earth ..” as humans, (not just shames)

and “ask” when wisdom lacks, don’t just ignore.



E*  “But thanks be to God who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ!  So then, my dear friends, stand firm and steady. Keep busy always in your work for the Lord, since you know that nothing you do in the Lord's service is ever useless.” (1Cor 15:57-58)
d* 1Corinthians 11:3; 12:12-27; Colossians 1:18; 2:19; 3:15; Eph 1:22-23
r* “God has bestowed upon us, through his divine power, everything that we need for life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and virtue. 4 The result is that he has given us, through these things, his precious and wonderful promises; and the purpose of all this is so that you may run away from the corruption of lust that is in the world, and may become partakers of the divine nature. 5 So, because of this, you should strain every nerve to supplement your faith with virtue, and your virtue with knowledge, 6 and your knowledge with self-control, and your self-control with patience, and your patience with piety, 7 and your piety with family affection, and your family affection with love. 8 If you have these things in plentiful supply, you see, you will not be wasting your time, or failing to bear fruit, in relation to your knowledge of our Lord Jesus the Messiah. (from 2Peter1:1-11, NTFE)
s*  “2 My friends, consider yourselves fortunate when all kinds of trials come your way, 3 for you know that when your faith succeeds in facing such trials, the result is the ability to endure. 4 Make sure that your endurance carries you all the way without failing, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. 5 But if any of you lack wisdom, you should pray to God, who will give it to you; because God gives generously and graciously to all. 6 But when you pray, you must believe and not doubt at all. Whoever doubts is like a wave in the sea that is driven and blown about by the wind. 7-8 If you are like that, unable to make up your mind and undecided in all you do, you must not think that you will receive anything from the Lord.” (from James 1:1-8; GNT)


2026-01-28

on waking up 4..


 (for)




No other purpose, but to just respond

to love that shakes a shoulder,

helps me up, with habits (not to wee in bed - no pond)

or just my failings with setting a clock


(alarm, for yester-afternoon with snooze).

The point is that your thoughts of me all day

alarm me, are not fitting One whose shoes

are big as yours are - unless love will pay


attention to beloved one - “unsized”.

(I hear, just now at 4:30 or so,

a 9 month old who’s happy babbling, wised

up, using his new syllables° “to go”;


and unaware that his tummy that talks

to him with growing hunger is what grows

his mother's bond with him who never balks

at being open with who really knows.


But this is knowing, as Right Hemisphere

of brain can know, relation’ly, HESED*.

Committed to one’s growth both now, and here,

as well as what’s a-coming up ahead.


If there is any way that I might give

you pleasure (though I hardly can believe

it’s even possible to think and live

that way) I want to find it. Not to leave


you high and dry, because you let yourself

relate to me so intimately and

allow me to join with the source of health

and life, and let pain help me understand*.



° saying contentedly  "um, um, um", and "add add add"  but which after maybe 15 or 20 minutes grew in strength to be wailings then screams.
D*  HESED is the Hebrew word for the tender love of husband for his beloved wife. (In some ways always a surprise to both, because it is always fresh and new, living and growing, bringing futures & possible beings into being-ness, focused not on old past occurrences between them, but on fresh experiences and delights for the whole new being being born of the two becoming one). It is eternal love, loving kindness, steadfast love, covenant love, etc, as Jesus the Christ of God disclosed to his Ambassador of his New Kingdom (Paul)... it is really only this kind of love that is eternal, with faithfulness and hopefulness being simply its clothing in this world.
d*  thinking of sonship (= discipleship), and that prophetic insight into the relationship of YHWH and the Servant of YHWH expressed by Isaiah: " He wakes me up every morning; he makes me alert so I can listen attentively as disciples do.[c]"(see Isa 50:4-11)


2026-01-25

the spirit


(embodied in the public Paul Kelly- whom we saw last night)



The way you work throughout this world un-nerves

and topples all the pow’rs that think they are

so big and mighty, that they’ll hardly swerve

so someone else might not be shrunk or barred.


Communicators who think of the ones

they’re trying to communicate with, for

some purposes which work like Dads with Sons

or Mums with daughters (neither less nor more),


to aid and to abet, to partner with, 

in such a way that has no apron strings

but only more enablement of kith

and kin alike, have more contributings,


more givings out, provisioning and smiles.

More smellings of the roses, so they’re close 

to garden/ growing metaphores. And while

some others might “count up” before disclose-


zing what they think to do, so they won’t shed -

in terms of what maintains, protects, enhance-

ses, their own world created in their head.

These ones are like the One, who loves to dance,


not just because they’ll save or it will pay,

without thought of what come-backance erupts.

They “count up” not for what others would say

or even think, they want to finish up!


So this whole big shebang is better off,

that’s even if they’re never famous or

a household word, or honoured, or not scoffed 

at. These ones hardly ever are a bore!






2026-01-24

the concert


(40yr Wedding Anniversary 2026)




Our kids (& their families) chipped in to buy us tickets to the Red Hot Summer Tour Concert near Newcastle, 24 Jan 2026. The artists were the singers and bands of Kasey Chambers, Jess Hitchcock, The Cat Empire, The Cruel Sea, Missy Higgins, and Paul Kelly. An amazing trip from Orange where we lost a front shock absorber about half way down and had to travel the rest of the way (there & back) at greatly reduced speed, listening to a Sci-fi Fantasy Novel. Stayed at an AirBnB, then off to this amazing concert before 11am, back around 10pm… lovely Indian food both nights. 


This is my visual record (no audio recordings allowed) of the concert with impressions and people caught with finger/ thumb drawings on my phone… and some little quotes to recall, differ with, think on… consider…


https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1299EAB02qEyTRaGaZWRpDsyHYqqUYXka





2026-01-21

ap-parent-ly..


a teacher…


[Reading through Matthew till today’s passage: ch13:1-33]
Jesus is a Rabi (and is known as "Teacher") & father (he says "My daughter"..., "my son...", & "my children"). It is  interesting how Jesus takes everyday occurrences, and people, and events (a woman putting yeast in the family dough before cooking their bread), as well as weird abnormal irregularities (an enemy secretly sowing tares in a king's wheat crop) to indicate what the reign of God is LIKE. (as we are Earthly LIKENESSES to the self existent one.).. 
Jesus really is steeping himself and his communication in the product of those scriptures...  
This is the job of all teachers/parents.


Oh God, please help me (I’m in those roles too),

to follow Jesus (this likeness to you) 

he’s my exemplar in all that I do

this day, this week, this year, this life anew.....


I’m growing younger over many days

to be a small child in my father’s world

where very rocks, and plants, & trees display

some diff’rent aspect each, to where they’re hurled


within a Universe, where I’ll rehearse

the lines and stanzas I am learning now

if they are helpful, for he has dispersed,

as he sees fit for purpose, and somehow


(as junior partner in amazing job)

our meaning & enable-ment that now

we really can join in, as we are lobbed

into this circumstance. We often (bow,


or) look up to the sky. Horizon is

the metaphor for more than what is sensed.

For further worlds\ dimensions are the biz-

nus of the human race, and recompense


for portals (as we are, & know he is).

A mother’s the participating “room”

for portalling of matter in a “whizz”

(9 months of atoms whirling in a womb).


A father is surrounding them with love,

provision, understanding, skills, and trades.

A teacher imparts wisdom “from above”.

And each continues walking…  sometimes wades!



to know

.. as we are known



My Father, Daddy, Papa, or Dadar,

I'm really glad that your knowledge is strong,

and deep as your love is for who we are

as children of you. Your suff’ring is long.


Your wisdom is what keeps our Universe

ad-he-ar-ing together, moving you.

Our wisdom has more often a perverse

attempt at ownership, de-si-re to..


be honoured by the folk we hear & see.

In words that Matthew told  from your true son* ..

we know that this will please your way to be

above, but also in this world in one


way (or another?). Maybe there’s not heaps.

The way that he embodied on this Earth

the walking from the pow’r which always keeps

pursuing, for undoing our whole birth.


And hiding, in the crowds and other spots

where he perceived they would not dare to look,

or just could not perceive (their sight was not

so great that they could see outside a book).


And looking for what God is looking for,

what he desires, what pleases him, is what

would “turn him on” to do a “Show/ tell” or

to just be glad to be Dad to a god°!


And find his children - resting in his care.. 

they are the ones who listen to his voice

& follow when he moves, & also where.

So they are those who  secretly rejoice.


*  “At that time Jesus said, ‘Father, Lord of heaven and earth! I thank you because you have shown to the unlearned what you have hidden from the wise and learned. [26] “Yes, Father, this was how you were pleased to have it happen. [27]  “My Father has given me all things. No one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal him.”...
[Matt 12: 6] “I tell you that there is something here greater than the Temple. [7]  The scripture says, ‘It is kindness that I want, not animal sacrifices.’ If you really knew what this means, you would not condemn people who are not guilty; [8] for the Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath.”
[12] And a human being is worth much more than a sheep! So then, our Law does allow us to help someone on the Sabbath.” 
[15] When Jesus heard about the plot against him, he went away from that place; and large crowds followed him. He healed all the sick [16] and gave them orders not to tell others about him. 
[18]  “Here is my servant, whom I have chosen, the one I love, and with whom I am pleased. I will send my Spirit upon him, and he will announce my judgment to the nations.
[28] No, it is not Beelzebul, but God's Spirit, who gives me the power to drive out demons, which proves that the Kingdom of God has already come upon you.
[30]  “Anyone who is not for me is really against me; anyone who does not help me gather is really scattering. 
[39]  “How evil and godless are the people of this day!” Jesus exclaimed. “You ask me for a miracle? No! The only miracle you will be given is the miracle of the prophet Jonah. 
[42]  On the Judgment Day the Queen of Sheba will stand up and accuse you, because she traveled all the way from her country to listen to King Solomon's wise teaching; and I assure you that there is something here greater than Solomon!
[50] Whoever does what my Father in heaven wants is my brother, my sister, and my mother.”
(Matthew 11:25-27; 12: 6-8, 12, 15-16, 18, 28, 30, 39, 42, 50 GNT)


2026-01-14

What's best?


DO it!


My God, you helped me see a better way
of living out each choice I have to make
(at least the ones where looking back I'd say
I taught myself to … hmm… procrastinate):


As soon as I can see the way forward…
just do it! (Yup, the Niké way of life).
But as I try to put this act to word
I see some “snares" that could cause me some strife…


“trip hazards”, might be better thing to say,
or artifact that’s caused by me myself -
from list'ning to the words more than the way.
But as a part of this system of health


the WORDing has a part to play, I see.
If I jump up too quickly I might faint,
if I run out too soon I might just be
hit by a bus, electric car, or paint-


ed on the road, which doesn’t seem to free
me, so much as more “hang me out to dry”.
Now even so, I've tasted this and see
how this approach must be what I call “mine”.


I’ll take it on (& yet look left & right,
to check for safety for all us involved).
And overall, the railway lines just might 
be said to tune to what  your wisdom’s solved.


And this reminds me of how you judge folk,
you keep to acts*, as fruit of words or thoughts.
So that will be enough for this-here bloke
to start to see more Action-fishies caught.



Mark 03  (esp vss 13-19 & 31-35 ), Matt 07 (most storylets). 1Tim 1:1-6:19; Titus 1:1-3:16; Hebrews 10:24-25; James; 1&2Peter




2026-01-13

on waking up t(h)ree ..




The kind of “living” I’ve been raised to have

by who I’m following as baby does

a parent - through the house as jobs are nav-

-igated to make home as bees would, buzz…


-ing in their work determined by the smell

of their own queen who sets the hive to make

the honey and the comb that’s home, and well…

I’m called and have responded. I am baked.


The heat of furnace melts the dross away.

The “washing” ’s for the core of who we are;

a firey-wind, a dove of flame I’d say.

And crucifying old self is the start.


Unless you take your own cross up and walk

with me to killing place of your own hopes,

you’ll miss the shots you make, or else you’ll balk

and miss the perpe-traitor like the dopes


who run from death and suffering and pain,

as though they were the worst things to occur.

Here fables are what help us see again:

The zombie story. Humans must deter


and try to kill all zombies off - to stop

the spread of them, but often  one escapes 

detection. In “remission” at the top

is the chief hunter. One is all it takes.


My Empire has a cell with zombie “life”

infecting it; of 30 trillion lives

one must be killed, then let God over strife 

raise it, as child of God who’s very wise.




2026-01-11

upon waking up 2 ..


(a better world and way of life)



The kind of “living” I desire to do,

to live out in this world from here on in,

is in the Way of Jesus. Christ, that’s you

and how you lived down here where you have been


for maybe only 30 years or so

(but maybe more, since it's your spirit come

to Earth, when you went to your Father. Go-

-ing up into the clouds that day when some..


..some messengers from God filled in those blokes

and said that you’d come back to rule like that.

And when your spirit came to live, to stoke

some fire within your people who would “bat”


on your team, on your side, to play the “game”

of this life as it is, whose time is our..

..our currency to spend; not just in name,

its purpose can be ratified - with pow’r!


The pow-er of creating a new Earth,

a new humanity that rules it well,

against an enemy who brings a dearth

of life with love. In other words brings “Hell”


into the world, as portal - its own self.

I can affect this world for heaven’s sake,

or else to be more truly just like Hell,

for changed a bit it is - each choice I make!


For heaven can absorb the whole of hell,

but hell can’t take a drop of water from

the edge of heaven. Wake me to the smell

of frying fish, or bread & wine & song.




upon waKing up 1




The kind of “living” I find in myself

so easily assumed, default it seems,

is first to check what I feel like. A stealth-

-y glance inside, & then decide it means...


It does not look up/ out, relating to 

the world around both seen and unseen which

I am a part of, to relate to who

is here and present, (sometimes with a glitch).


It seems to see itself as god right here

in this small patch of Universe - to call

the shots. And then works out, beyond what’s near,

with this same mindset - far beyond this Paul.


Forgetting, or not taking to account

a faulty “Centering Effect” that’s like

a compass pointing “South” it can amount

to all directions losing touch with life.


[For truly I am set to rule (in part

at least) this set of cells comprising “Me” -

the thirty six-ish trillion cells so art-

fully designed to live, move, look and see


and come and go all under my command.

For I’m de facto ruler of this world,

though much is set in motion, understand,

until I learn to rule well, I feel hurled


out into this small galaxy, where I

on learning can affect more than just these.]

I need the wisdom from above me. Why

should my own ignorance cause such dis-ease?