2023-09-30

Praying for our children & their children (& their parents)




Where seed is received

and secrets achieved

with hearts that believed

& deep roots see heaved


to heavens above

some leavings of love.

By magic, they change

the common in strange


ways that allow all

Earth's life to recall

and live on, somehow

with energy now.


Take in just good seeds

not choked out by weeds,

that they'll be good soil

with harvest that's royal.


Good seed take deep root

That they'll bear much fruit

So YaHWeH's strong life's

still scattered in strife.


And even of those

good soils we suppose

a diff'rence he'd note

(not numbers to bloat


our pride's which abide -

be now crucified,

well, daily at least

by man, but not beast).




2023-09-29

A) God himself is teaching you to love one another



And oh, my God! I wish that that was true.

I wish that you would teach me love like yours.

I see now, that you've started, & you'll do

it to me, in me, through me, now because


(I didn't put that quote down yet below -

as well as what is there, the over all

message that, well, small children would know

is that) The God is love! This ain't no small 


descriptive attribute about one part

of God's big work, like "loving such & such!"

God ain't just "loving", though that is a start

to understanding God, and helps things much!


This God, just IS; & you could say IS LOVE.

Well, now I see just how far off from him

I must be living, and how far above

us are his ways, & his way is not dim.


His overarching, excellent, and MOST

HIGH way IS not my way - full self-defence.

Oh God, I truly love to be your host,

but ev'rything I have 's from you, so hence


- you might feel quite at home here. Hope you do!

And, thank you for your company thus far.

I'm glad that you know all about who's true,

& won't be satisfied with where we are.


You know I need your help right at the core

of my humanity, the spirit's place:

My raison d'etre! How I hope? What for?

It comes together, when I see his face!




No, in all these things we have complete victory through him who loved us! For I am certain that nothing can separate us from his love: neither death nor life, neither angels nor other heavenly rulers or powers, neither the present nor the future, neither the world above nor the world below—there is nothing in all creation that will ever be able to separate us from the love of God which is ours through Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37‭-‬39 GNTD


and I pray that Christ will make his home in your hearts through faith. I pray that you may have your roots and foundation in love, so that you, together with all God's people, may have the power to understand how broad and long, how high and deep, is Christ's love. Yes, may you come to know his love—although it can never be fully known—and so be completely filled with the very nature of God. Ephesians 3:17‭-‬19 GNTD


God's divine power has given us everything we need to live a truly religious life through our knowledge of the one who called us to share in his own glory and goodness. In this way he has given us the very great and precious gifts he promised, so that by means of these gifts you may escape from the destructive lust that is in the world, and may come to share the divine nature. For this very reason do your best to add goodness to your faith; to your goodness add knowledge; to your knowledge add self-control; to your self-control add endurance; to your endurance add godliness; to your godliness add Christian affection; and to your Christian affection add love. These are the qualities you need, and if you have them in abundance, they will make you active and effective in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But if you do not have them, you are so shortsighted that you cannot see and have forgotten that you have been purified from your past sins. So then, my friends, try even harder to make God's call and his choice of you a permanent experience; if you do so, you will never abandon your faith. In this way you will be given the full right to enter the eternal Kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. 2 Peter 1:3‭-‬11 GNTD


The God who said, “Out of darkness the light shall shine!” is the same God who made his light shine in our hearts, to bring us the knowledge of God's glory shining in the face of Christ. 2 Corinthians 4:6 GNTD





& the light shone down...




The light of understanding, knowing who

is round about, and able to disclose 

their will, & choices through their life, and do

things that contribute to more things like those.


A character that holds the choices in

such constellations that some spirit is

embodied or disclosed, revealed, to win

the friendships that grow with choices like this.


So friendships end up being special kinds

of those connections wills can have between

themselves, alliances that aren't just blind,

when positive regard connects to mean


another growth in depth, & height, & breadth

of this connecting spirit stuff that "lives"

but only in a critter not yet dead

that's able still to choose; it takes or gives.


And I am here, a foetal god, it seems.

I can make some small choices still these days.

But love is more like something in my dreams;

I'd love to love, to learn to live love's ways.


Oh God, your outward giving, positive

regard has shown mine up, it's small and weak!

Unless you plant it, so that it will live

within me, I've got "nothing", so to speak.


Without you I am lost - at growing love.

Unless you'll be a gardener again,

I can't go on (without help from above),

but with you, I will grow to be a man!




2023-09-28

I'm '

possible?  

plausible?

planted?




I woke to realize that positive

regard was in my breast for who woke me.

I thought to say "I love you - as I live!",

but knew my love as such that it might be


a curse - so fragile, undeveloped, weak

and almost unsustainable it seems.

The prospects of it growing here seem bleak,

for it would take a god, with all their means..


And yet I have no faith that such exist.

Capricious, pow-er-ful, im-mortal ones,

like humans, with more power to enlist

but less than human insight. Just more runs


on board, the field, because of all the time.

And really, I suspect, an image made

to fit our empty psyche, as we divine

our goal, our hope, for power, as we wade


about in darkness, in a watery world,

without much solid ground under our feet..

So Plato's insight*'s like a flag unfurled,

and I concur, this is our plight, our suite.


Creative Love who "thought up" life and this 

quite slippery mythic thing called love by us,

from which all honour, brave'ry that exists

in giving self for others, friendship's fuss,


or mother's/ father's, uncle's/ aunty's care

when such is more or less the kind of thing

that's worth sustaining down here, anywhere,

a glorious thing to have, to wear like bling..


My GOD! You love me! - & your gift to me

is better than the best that I'd hope for,

develop, dream of, long to have, that we

together might do work as BOSS, or Lord


of this whole Earth in heaven's greater vault.

The best and biggest gift to me would be

for you to hang around (it's all your "fault")

to teach us love, thus trained, apprenticed, we


might have a chance to learn to wield The Force,

that made and keeps this Universe intact

and spreading out, and cooling down, because

you wanted to have heirs, who'd choose, and act!


I take it from your mind now, into mine,

(to be mined out with shovel, barrow, pick),

that all the gold that I could ever find,

the music, chance to care, is ever quick-


-ened, made to come alive in inner self

by you, and since you seem to still be here,

I'll say, please help me grow to love. My wealth

is friends ' ships moving as flotilla, near.




*  The souls of people, on their way to Earth-life, pass through a room full of lights; each takes a taper - often only a spark - to guide it in the dim country of this world. But some souls, by rare fortune, are detained longer - have time to grasp a handful of tapers, which they weave into a torch. These are the torch-bearers of humanity - its poets, seers and saints, who lead and lift the race out of darkness, toward the light. They are the law-givers and saviors, the light-bringers, way-showers and truth-tellers, and without them, humanity would lose its way in the dark. PLATO 




2023-09-27

does it matter?




What does it matter, what folk think of me?

(and whether they think I'm valid or not)..

The most important thing is that there be

some indication that there is no rot


within the life of Christ, he's conquered death,

decay, corruption, all uncleanliness,

& that the news gets out, with any breath

that's breathed by humans being more or less


in tune themselves with that news. Heralds all,

who are concerned with truth, so I've rejoiced.

Yes, and I will continue, that's this Paul,

provided for by Spirit of God's Boy


such that along with your own prayers, I know 

that what has happened here to me will turn 

out for my own deliverance. I hope 

& eagerly expect that I won't burn


with shame, but will have courage with each breath

so that as always Christ will be in me

exalted in my body's life or death. 

To me, to live is Christ himself my Liege;


to die is gaining (more, not life that's lost). 

If I'm to go on living bodily, 

this will mean fruitful labour - with a cost

If it was mine to choose, I could not see..


I'm torn between the two: depart and be 

with Christ, which is far better; but it is 

more helpful for you that I bodily

stay here; convinced of this, I know that this..


this option is for me, just now, I'll stay, 

then will continue with all of you for 

your progress and your joy within your faith-

ful friendship (a response to his, what's more)


so through my being with you here again

your boasting in the Christ - Jesus will sound

out more & more till it abounds & then

whatever happens, your conduct around


God's world would help to sound the gospel hear

it will proclaim the Christ, so here or there

I'll know that you stand firm in the one Spir-

-it, striving as one for the faith we share


in gospelling, without in any way 

allowing fear of those who would oppose.

This is a sign to them that you'll be saved

& they will be destroyed – by God's impose.


For you have been here granted on behalf 

of Christ, not only to believe in him, 

but also here to suffer, not just laugh

for him, since we'll all struggle, then we'll win.




But what does it matter? The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached. And because of this I rejoice. Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labour for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me. Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in the one Spirit, striving together as one for the faith of the gospel without being frightened in any way by those who oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed, but that you will be saved – and that by God. For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe in him, but also to suffer for him, since you are going through the same struggle you saw I had, and now hear that I still have. Philippians 1:18‭-‬30 NIVUK




2023-09-26

We spent time composing psalms

A Psalm of Lucas. 

(To be played with a stringed instrument by the sons of the cornerstone.)



He is patient when we are weak and forget his goodness

   He knows us and seeks our best

The one who seeks the Lord finds rest for their soul

   He knows us and seeks our best

We find freedom when we pursue him over all else

   He knows us and seeks our best

When things go wrong and we don't understand why

   He knows us and seeks our best

His promise is to be with us even in the dark places

   He knows us and seeks our best 

We want the world but he will provide what we need

   He knows us and seeks our best

Those who love the Lord will obey his commands and he will dwell on them

   He knows us and seeks our best



Audio of fourth version of song accompanied by a stringed instrument, sung & music composed by Paul Walker



waking up to strangeness (b

 



Within that day just gone, an inkling came:

address myself to who's the senior one

within this partnership, call on his name

as child calls "Mum" or "Dad" in need or fun


(not so to gain more power over them,

but in the framework where a fam'ly's love

& hope & faithfullness are like a hem

which stops a garment fraying). Who's above


has the authority creative love

has in the mind of children ev'ry where.

When faithfullness is acted (hand moves glove).

This mindset of a fam'ly venture's care


to look after those under me, to serve;

and look up to who's over me, in case

there's things that I must do, don't lose my nerve,

but learn to do them better - in this place.


This mindset is the antidote, I think, 

of kinds of emptyness that boredom seems

to be, as feedback for the times I "wink"

but prob'ly should be working more in teams.


To see the bigger venture be enfleshed

& come about, because that is our way,

our fam'ly style, our culture that is meshed

with culture of eternity, I'd say.


So looking down at me, from vantage point

of one who is above me, overhead,

can help me see, and know the muscles/joints

to move, to do the thing GOD would have said!




waking up to strangeness (a




And here, the next good morning comes along,

and in between I've had a chance to feel

the opposite of joyfulness & song -

the blandness of no meaning, nothing's real! -


- or meaningful, or beckoning to joy,

the steady hope has seemed to just fade out.

No movement in the spirit stirs this boy.

If this should feel quite alien, why pout?


I've heard and known a lot of people who

have had a situation where they live

quite anxious, or depressed, lost meaning too.

So why should I not learn to fly, to give


not just when I feel overflowing, great;

but also when I may just choose to, for

a human true, should work against the hate,

indiff'rence, with integrity that's more


than having ev'rything work well of late.

Sometimes I know, I get to choose what's right,

not just because de-si-res won't abate.

Desire, like a beast in fight or flight


must first be named, in language claimed and 'seen',

then quite observed, and heard, & understood,

and ruled as gift from God to world should be 

(not as the God, as on my own, as would


an animal, or A.I., sensing what's

around, with some desires built in too).

The news that Senior Partner calls the shots,

& is "at hand", is good and ever new!