is sharing air, a bit like prayer?

A little while ago I said to God

“I understand not how prayer works at all”,

though minutes later, couldn't see the knot

that seemed before to bother this small Paul.

So here I'll try to put it, so to say

something like the problem that I felt:

“Prayer’s mechanisms that “work” here today

don't always seem to “work”, where I have dwelt.”

So now I see my problem hinges on

the meaning of that word “work” up above,

espec'ly when seen in that paradigm

of “working mechanisms”, not of “love”.

It seems when some folk say “Prayer changes things”

a part of me is hooked to focus on

the last word in that sentence, which then brings

my house of cards a crashing before long.

But if I think about it diff'rently,

and mean by prayer just “hanging out” with God,

or even “hanging in” there, frequently,

and ope'ning up about where “we” have trod,

and what has happened to me in his world,

and start to get to know responses made

by him, and posit where they've come from curled

within his nature, as within the shade

an animal that's wild, & quite untamed

might still be friendly, and begin to see

my motives, if I'm not one to have mamed

and used one like it - what I want to be.

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