a ppalling life

2013-01-22

beaux & arrows

A new "Learner with the Courage 2 Teach".

God, thank you 4 this arrow,
shot from home 4Ur bidding,
into a world that is slow,
or "dead" (know you weren't kidding).
Thank U 4 this bow (called Hun).
Please shoot arrows from her too;
all the children ("daughters"/"sons")
she helps 2B more than "zoo".
4the Spirit of Ur son
that you've put in her will bring
dead 2 life, with anyone
who hears his voice, - they will sing!
Amen.

All in a day's work

Why must I every morning,
and afternoon as well,
have this *job* thrust upon me?
It comes back like a smell.
As I now think about it;
it's not that I feel bad,
I certainly don't doubt it
must be done, or I'm mad!
A bit of quick reaction
is called for here, (with slow).
Don't feel like crucifixion,
but maybe each new blow...?
That calm determination
to do what must be done,
to nail down (no frustration)
- like they did to "the Son"..
"The Son of Humanity",
he fondly called himself;
He, the archetype of me,
would go through this, to Hell.
His followers would doubt it,
they'd say "That's not the way".
He didn't HAVE to do it;
they did, so he would pay!
I needed crucifixion;
he didn't, not a bit.
So Love goes to Jerus'lem,
his hand, my glove, that fits.
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"Soldier" doing his job well,
"just bang on in that nail"-
quick and clean, no living hell
of playing cat/mouse games.
For in me, it's not the good,
the holy and the true,
that must be nailed down, or should
be buried dead and blue, ...
...but the Judas, anti-christ,
however he got there,
that must be killed, sacrificed (?)
O God it's hardly fair!
Not fair that he who never sinned
would let love so constrain him,
and show up all my blustery wind.
"The Son of Love" I name him!
And, gladly name this undead thing
and to "Gehenna" send it;
unless your spirit blows and brings
life "from above", can't "mend it"!

*And he said to them all, "If you want to come with me you must forget yourself, take up your cross every day, and follow me." (Luke 9:23; GNB)*

Some relevant background thoughts/quotes:
“you shall love your neighbour, as you love yourself” OT (Lev 19:18)

Maybe Jesus opened that “yourself” up a bit when he said: (luke 9:23) “And he said to them all, “If you want to come with me, you must forget yourself, take up your cross every day, and follow me.” And then (John 13:34) “And now I give you a new commandment: love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.”

He didn’t quite pamper them. He spoke the truth, he challenged, he was gentle (in some circumstances), he was severe (in others; e.g. “Get behind me Satan” etc), he let them see his feelings...
Did Jesus also love, say, the Pharisees? or the Teachers of the Law/ Scribes? Was his severe talking to them, simply the way that love had to be expressed in that context to them as leaders (“to whom much has beeen given, much will be required”), in order to wake them up(!) - as with his other comments to Peter?

2013-01-11

To my brothers in LTG:

Just to let U know brothers,
God loves us & as we "speak"
I recall: "pray 4 others",
"how'd my reading go this week?"
Just prayed 4 my friends,
& also for you 3 men.
Only got up to John 10
glad to do it once again.

2013-01-10

A sister felt she was sinking & asked for prayer

Oh God thank you
4 my sister.
She feels like poo-
in a blister.
Sad, & sorry,
& not much good,
{know the story,
& how "he" stood
with us in this
un-kind of plight;
he's our presen(ts/ce),
he is our light}
Our lives R built
on sinking sand,
but his life spilt
is our command
and beckon still
to walk where he
has walked, & will
he set us free?
Please help my sis
in darkness now,
to be remiss
with this world's sounds,
& forget to
remember well
her worth as viewed
from this world's hell.
Amen, amen.
Small Paul, a friend...

2013-01-08

Living with the god & father of Yeshua.

Well here I am Lord,
still, under your spell.
That gives me courage
to lift my head well.
Not to be driven,
or shrunk to a “fate”.
But though I’ve striven
I’m too small, too late,..
..or too early, my
tim-ing’s not that great!
If life’s just what I
can appreciate;
I’ve not learned lessons
from before first grade.
I now remember
how life then displayed:
much I didn’t know,
much I didn’t get,
but “too small, too slow”
aided & abet-
ed my want to grow
(and to not forget),
my trust in who shows
wise love’s committment.
Dissonance was then
a state I lived in,
not I ran from, when
my growing was flowing.
And as I saw more
‘stead of reducing,
expanding unknowns
flowed in my sluicing.
Not smugness but awe
was growing in me.
So now, like before,
your small child I’ll be.

2013-01-06

A godly leader just called us on to follow the Christ (God's ultimate leader)

God, thank you for our leader,

that you have now given us.

I will now be a heeder

of his requests, with no blush.

Thank you too, for his pray - ers

that we would be what you meant

when you made us; not stray-ers

off the path, for self, hell-bent.

God, we pray now your Spirit

will help us where we aren't "filled",

and your Voice, now to hear it.

Maybe we'll have to "be still"?..

.. to early "Üp", then to pray,

to keep our sense of calling,

bask in your sun's warming rays.

Jesus, save us from falling..

..falling through where we were bold,

letting fear throw out our faith.

Faith that's more precious than gold,

we will guard, and not abate.

Jesus, we hear your call to

- copy God's full forgiveness,

- serve; nothing too small to do,

- pray for all brothers/sisters.

- pray for God to send on out

harvesters into his fields;

- preach, the message with no doubt

who is boss, to whom we'll yield.

etc..

2013-01-03

Y' ARE WAY past our ken, & your appalling calling:

My Lord, I loves “wasting time” with you;
part of me shoves ‘portant things to do
off to anoth-er time, it’s true.
But I can’t cov-er this up. I’m blue.

My “blue” is here, as a spe-cial sign,
that I do fear that you are not mine,
and I’m not yours, but a bastard child,
not loved, because your love's not that wild.

What god has done such a thing as this?
To have a son, and record it bliss
to bind oneself, and then keep one’s word;
to bring good health to such small absurd..

..and selfish pricks, like ugly bird chicks.
They say “stuff sticks”, we sure need your licks
to clean us off, both the food and poo -
what’s come from me, and what’s come from you!

Dribble, and spew, then there’s wee and poo
all comes from me. Now what comes from you?
Hugs, food and drink, and the cleaning up!
Smiles make us think that your love’s enough.

Your songs and sounds, articulation;
just being ‘round; some times dictation;
and snuggling up. Then your washing time,
and time to sup, makes life near sublime.

But most of all is your creative
woo and call, that’s more than sate-ive,
colour and smell, and the lilt of tune.
You do things well! Y’ARE our WAY, and BOON!

2012-12-31

Marty @ 40 yrs.

Marty what's on?
What's going down?
I know there's lots on
I don't see you frown.
Forty years rolled
but seemed just like ten
the last twenty told
of Uni, family, and friends
Disciples that arrived
with whom you shared your life,
Family that's thrived:
four kids and a wife.
You've bin a good friend
right through the years
as our way we wend
with gladness, sadness, and cheers!
Cheers to our big brother
who's teaching us to
live for God and the other
as love wants us to do.
(1 Dec 2002 AD)

Marty Watson-Nifty, Fifty.

No longer a pup.
Yeah? What's goin' DOWN?
Well, it's comin' UP!
Now Marty don't frown.
About to take OFF
So, Marty What's ON?
Ian says "That's unreal".
So how do U feel?
That's half a century,
and still going strong -
not on the bench. He
has played like a song!
FIF-ty whole ye-ars
he's lived on this earth
And still it appears
what he's really worth.
If you are with me,
then please raise your beer
Let's hear from these blokes
right here, a small* cheer..
MARTY

* Why small, instead of great? As I recall, there were people sleeping or something, that we had to be quiet for...8Dec2012AD

2012-12-23

Prioritization, Comodification, Love, & Life!

When God is not my Number One,
what have I got? What has begun?
A World of rot, so “on the run”
that it is “shot”! It’s lost it’s sun! -
- its “days” are not; and “years” undone;
no warmth, it’s lot; gravity’s spun..
..off, with light’s spot. No future fun,
if God is not my Number One!

Not just “Number”, like a machine,
“Cool cucumber” know what I mean,
faking slumber, (not very keen).
Like the Rhumba, em-passion-ing,
or child’s slumber, very trusting.
I’m not his “jumbu- ck”, he’s shearing;
neither his “lumber”; he does “Naming”,
not just “Number”, like a machine!

Number One Love. - What God must be!
Born from above humanity,
“hand in a glove”- is “he” in “we”.
Since he is love he’ll act (in me),
he won’t just shove, but make me free
to do what cov- -ers a multi-
-tude of sins’ stuff, and to pay the
price to dis-cov- -er & set free.

2012-12-20

To a sister - in the Messiah

How does it feel Shell-
to be fifty one?
Feel like an old gell?
Or still too much fun?

Truth 'bout "Feelings" said:
"They ain't the whole deal";
but truly they've led
folk, to see more real:

We're over the hill,
and now running down.
Let's enjoy our fill,
not pout, cry, or frown..

'bout what we CAN'T do -
when there's stuff we can.
I'd like to thank you,
your kids, & your man...

..for choosing to live
(with me) in God's rooms,
& helping my "sieve" *
remember the blooms..

The bloomin' flowers,
with stories & pic's.
Bodies lose powers,
but new ones are fixed!

And thanx Creator!
-of this here old earth!
- for all that's greater
since Yeshua's birth.
XXOO Paul.
* I've got a memory like a ..., like a ... (what is that thing, like a collander ?)

2012-12-18

Mary Christmas...

Merry Christmas! (version 1)

Did you know that Christmas celebrations are birthday celebrations?
I think most people don’t, or they’ve forgotten. One step further, is to remember the mum.
Mary Christmas! Let me remind you about her.