Living with the god & father of Yeshua.

Well here I am Lord,
still, under your spell.
That gives me courage
to lift my head well.
Not to be driven,
or shrunk to a “fate”.
But though I’ve striven
I’m too small, too late,..
..or too early, my
tim-ing’s not that great!
If life’s just what I
can appreciate;
I’ve not learned lessons
from before first grade.
I now remember
how life then displayed:
much I didn’t know,
much I didn’t get,
but “too small, too slow”
aided & abet-
ed my want to grow
(and to not forget),
my trust in who shows
wise love’s committment.
Dissonance was then
a state  I lived in,
not   I ran from,  when
my growing was flowing.
And as I saw more
‘stead of reducing,
expanding unknowns
flowed in my sluicing.
Not smugness but awe
was growing in me.
So now, like before,
your small child I’ll be.