life appalls♧♤, now calls◇♡...

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I'm so small, my purview is not large;

each time that I forget you... Oh my god...

I feel so threatened when folk 'round me barge

& try to force the way that we'll have trod.

It's mostly if they claim the higher ground..

each time they state their stuff in such a way

as to manipulate "what has been found..."

I smell their lack, & then I want to say

things with a push-back - "I'm as good as you!"

& do their trick to them, right to their face!

I know that's not a lovely thing to do,

and certainly does not smell of the  grace

that makes all human life more than deranged

(& moves by higher ways than "tooth & nail").

My modus operandi needs to change,

I must see further… not just chase my tail…

[Chorus 1…]

I'm so small, my purview is not large;

each time that I forget you... oh my god...

I feel so threatened when folk 'round me barge

and try to force what happens here a lot.

I cannot answer my dilemna by

more belly-button gazing at myself,

I must see through me, to your bigger life -

and trust you as my glorious true wealth.

[Chorus 2…]

Since nothing separates me from above -

your care and your acceptance! Oh my god!

Some small change doesn't justify your love,

it's part of consequences, which are lots.

So I do now relinquish "rights" of mine

to be the top dog*, since I'm not at all.

I set myself to learn from you to shine.

Your "foolish" ways are wisdom for this Paul.

[Chorus 2…]

Since nothing separates me "from above" -

your care and your acceptance! Oh my god!

Some small change doesn't justify your love,

it's part of consequences, which are lots.

I'll seek, and ask, for wisdom "from above" 

my own small situation, and expect

the parents of this foetus to show love;

and yes you are° my way! I now accept.

[Chorus 2…]

Since nothing separates me "from above" -

your care and your acceptance! Oh my god!

Some small change doesn't justify your love,

it's part of consequences, which are lots.

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*  thinking of that story I heard first from John Smith of Melbourne early this millenium (I think), about the agnostic, dyslexic, insomniac, who used to lie awake at night, and wonder if there really was a dog. 

°  thinking of that epitome of the best of that spirit found in Einstein, Freud, Jung, Solomon, Jeremiah, Moses, Abraham, embodied in that occupied part of the Roman empire from the First Century CE, who claimed to have found (and offered up gladly to all who accepted his invitation and who came to him) the way to being human in this world, and more. His name in Hebrew sounds a bit like this.

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Audio of draft version : https://tinyurl.com/4z8d5szy 

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