2024-01-18

to bear with-ness..




Who are the folk around here where I live

that you want me to bless somehow as yours -

your fam'ly member sent to Earth to give

the blessing of my God to them because


you are that kind of person, run on love

and goodness, both together with the truth;

whose motivation at the core's enough

to birth ev'ry emotion as a youth,


an innocent, not cynical and tired

of being overdone, and used up, but

is fresh to ev'ry moment, and is wired

to be appropriate, to build, not "smut" -


that somehow uses, is discordant and

is not quite integrated properly

(when things like this in my life come to hand

it's 'coz I'm immature, or bent, I see


- or inexperienced, or ignorant.

And as I live with you, in world of yours,

I'm learning that not one of these can plant 

their feet down firmly, or are solid flaws


enough to stop development and growth

of that committed (hesed) love which will

keep using ev'ry dog-gone thing, or loath-

some person, place, event, or animal


that's made, or comes to pass, or simulates,

that's virtual, imagin-al, or "real",

to move, teach, grow, develop who relates

to you in ways that with you, walk & feel.




Bibliography:


  • (Genesis) Adam & Eve hiding instead of walking with God; Enoch, the 7th decendant (of God), who went walking with God (some texts say for 300 years, so not just once - by accident) 

    • [They heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden at the time of the evening breeze, and the man and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden. But the Lord God called to the man, and said to him, “Where are you?” He said, “I heard the sound of you in the garden, and I was afraid, because I was naked; and I hid myself.” He said, “Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree of which I commanded you not to eat?” And the Lord God made garments of skins for the man and for his wife, and clothed them. Then the Lord God said, “See, the man has become like one of us, knowing good and evil; and now, he might reach out his hand and take also from the tree of life, and eat, and live forever”— therefore the Lord God sent him forth from the garden of Eden, to till the ground from which he was taken. He drove out the man; and at the east of the garden of Eden he placed the cherubim, and a sword flaming and turning to guard the way to the tree of life. Genesis 3:8‭-‬11‭, ‬21‭-‬24 NRSV

    • This is the list of the descendants of Adam. When God created humankind, he made them in the likeness of God. Male and female he created them, and he blessed them and named them “Humankind” when they were created. When Adam had lived one hundred thirty years, he became the father of a son in his likeness, according to his image, and named him Seth. The days of Adam after he became the father of Seth were eight hundred years; and he had other sons and daughters. Thus all the days that Adam lived were nine hundred thirty years; and he died. When Seth had lived one hundred five years, he became the father of Enosh. ..  Kenan .. Mahalalel. .. Jared. .. ..When Enoch had lived sixty-five years, he became the father of Methuselah. Enoch walked with God after the birth of Methuselah three hundred years, and had other sons and daughters. Thus all the days of Enoch were three hundred sixty-five years. Enoch walked with God; then he was no more, because God took him. Genesis 5:1‭‭-‬24 NRSV]

  • Large scriptural theme: Though God may still be invisible to our present eyes and vantage point, & cognition (as its parents are to a babe in the womb), God is living with his children, & his hope is that they will "be revealed to the world", & that he will live with them in reality in such a way that he is their GOD, and they are his people. This GOD is not territorial, he goes with his people wherever they go. He walks among them (each night, and maybe ev'ry day). 

    • God makes a covenant with Noah, all humanity, & all life on Earth, with a beautiful, varied, shimmering, colourful sign, by which he says when he sees it he will link the seeing of something bezutiful like that (that one wants to look at, will be his cue to remember his covenant with them in the future (this is a model for them as to how to live in loyal covenant love (hesed) with someone else) God blessed Noah and his sons, and said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply, and fill the earth. God said to Noah, “This is the sign of the covenant that I have established between me and all flesh that is on the earth.” Genesis 9:1‭-17 NRSV

    • God was with the boy, and he grew up; he lived in the wilderness, and became an expert with the bow. He lived in the wilderness of Paran; and his mother got a wife for him from the land of Egypt. At that time Abimelech, with Phicol the commander of his army, said to Abraham, “God is with you in all that you do; now therefore swear to me here by God that you will not deal falsely with me or with my offspring or with my posterity, but as I have dealt loyally with you, you will deal with me and with the land where you have resided as an alien.” And Abraham said, “I swear it.” … Therefore that place was called Beer-sheba; because there both of them swore an oath. When they had made a covenant at Beer-sheba, Abimelech, with Phicol the commander of his army, left and returned to the land of the Philistines. Abraham planted a tamarisk tree in Beer-sheba, and called there on the name of the Lord, the Everlasting God. Genesis 21:20‭-‬24‭, ‬31‭-‬33 NRSV

    • And that very night the Lord appeared to him and said, “I am the God of your father Abraham; do not be afraid, for I am with you and will bless you and make your offspring numerous for my servant Abraham's sake.” Genesis 26:24 NRSV

    • And the Lord stood beside him and said, “I am the Lord, the God of Abraham your father and the God of Isaac; the land on which you lie I will give to you and to your offspring; and your offspring shall be like the dust of the earth, and you shall spread abroad to the west and to the east and to the north and to the south; and all the families of the earth shall be blessed in you and in your offspring. Know that I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” Then Jacob woke from his sleep and said, “Surely the Lord is in this place—and I did not know it!” And he was afraid, and said, “How awesome is this place! This is none other than the house of God, and this is the gate of heaven.” So Jacob rose early in the morning, and he took the stone that he had put under his head and set it up for a pillar and poured oil on the top of it. He called that place Bethel; but the name of the city was Luz at the first. Then Jacob made a vow, saying, “If God will be with me, and will keep me in this way that I go, and will give me bread to eat and clothing to wear, so that I come again to my father's house in peace, then the Lord shall be my God, …" Genesis 28:13‭-‬21 NRSV

    • The Lord was with Joseph, and he became a successful man; he was in the house of his Egyptian master. His master saw that the Lord was with him, and that the Lord caused all that he did to prosper in his hands. So Joseph found favor in his sight and attended him; he made him overseer of his house and put him in charge of all that he had. From the time that he made him overseer in his house and over all that he had, the Lord blessed the Egyptian's house for Joseph's sake; the blessing of the Lord was on all that he had, in house and field. So he left all that he had in Joseph's charge; and, with him there, he had no concern for anything but the food that he ate. Now Joseph was handsome and good-looking. And Joseph's master took him and put him into the prison, the place where the king's prisoners were confined; he remained there in prison. But the Lord was with Joseph and showed him steadfast love; he gave him favor in the sight of the chief jailer. The chief jailer committed to Joseph's care all the prisoners who were in the prison, and whatever was done there, he was the one who did it. The chief jailer paid no heed to anything that was in Joseph's care, because the Lord was with him; and whatever he did, the Lord made it prosper. Genesis 39:2‭-‬6‭, ‬20‭-‬23 NRSV

    • And Pharaoh said to Joseph, “I have had a dream, and there is no one who can interpret it. I have heard it said of you that when you hear a dream you can interpret it.” Joseph answered Pharaoh, “It is not I; God will give Pharaoh a favorable answer.” …. Then Joseph said to Pharaoh, “Pharaoh's dreams are one and the same; God has revealed to Pharaoh what he is about to do. …. Pharaoh said to his servants, “Can we find anyone else like this—one in whom is the spirit of God?” So Pharaoh said to Joseph, “Since God has shown you all this, there is no one so discerning and wise as you. You shall be over my house, and all my people shall order themselves as you command; only with regard to the throne will I be greater than you.” And Pharaoh said to Joseph, “See, I have set you over all the land of Egypt.”. …. Moreover, all the world came to Joseph in Egypt to buy grain, because the famine became severe throughout the world. Genesis 41:15‭-‬16‭, ‬25‭, ‬38‭-‬41‭, ‬50‭-‬52, 57 NRSV

    • I myself will go down with you to Egypt, and I will also bring you up again; and Joseph's own hand shall close your eyes.” Genesis 46:4 NRSV

    • Moses said to the Lord, “See, you have said to me, ‘Bring up this people’; but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. Yet you have said, ‘I know you by name, and you have also found favor in my sight.’ Now if I have found favor in your sight, show me your ways, so that I may know you and find favor in your sight. Consider too that this nation is your people.” He said, “My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.” And he said to him, “If your presence will not go, do not carry us up from here. For how shall it be known that I have found favor in your sight, I and your people, unless you go with us? In this way, we shall be distinct, I and your people, from every people on the face of the earth.” The Lord said to Moses, “I will do the very thing that you have asked; for you have found favor in my sight, and I know you by name.” Exodus 33:12‭-‬17 NRSV

    • I will dwell among the Israelites, and I will be their God. Exodus 29:45 NRSV

    • I will place my dwelling in your midst, and I shall not abhor you. And I will walk among you, and will be your God, and you shall be my people. I am the Lord your God who brought you out of the land of Egypt, to be their slaves no more; I have broken the bars of your yoke and made you walk erect. Leviticus 26:11‭-‬13 NRSV

    • See, I am going to gather them from all the lands to which I drove them in my anger and my wrath and in great indignation; I will bring them back.. They shall be my people, and I will be their God. I will give them one heart and one way, that they may fear me for all time, for their own good and the good of their children after them. I will make an everlasting covenant with them, never to draw back from doing good to them; and I will put the fear of me in their hearts, so that they may not turn from me. I will rejoice in doing good to them, and I will plant them in this land in faithfulness, with all my heart and all my soul. Jeremiah 32:37‭-‬41 NRSV

    • My dwelling place shall be with them; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people. Ezekiel 37:27 NRSV

    • For nothing will be impossible with God.” Luke 1:37 NRSV

    • What agreement has the temple of God with idols? For we are the temple of the living God; as God said, “I will live in them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they shall be my people. Therefore come out from them, and be separate from them, says the Lord, and touch nothing unclean; then I will welcome you, and I will be your father, and you shall be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty.” 2 Corinthians 6:16‭-‬18 NRSV

    • The God of peace be with all of you. Amen. Romans 15:33 NRSV

    • And I saw the holy city, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “See, the home of God is among mortals. He will dwell with them as their God; they will be his peoples, and God himself will be with them; Revelation 21:2‭-‬3 NRSV

  • Paul talks about Christ being with us because he is in us & we are in Christ, and his spirit being in us, & we are his (as a husband or wife are the other's):

    • "Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will hardship, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, “For your sake we are being killed all day long; we are accounted as sheep to be slaughtered.” No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:1‭-‬39 NRSV

    • For we are God's servants, working together; you are God's field, God's building. …  Do you not know that you are God's temple and that God's Spirit dwells in you? If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy that person. For God's temple is holy, and you are that temple. So let no one boast about human leaders. For all things are yours, whether Paul or Apollos or Cephas or the world or life or death or the present or the future—all belong to you, and you belong to Christ, and Christ belongs to God. 1 Corinthians 3:9‭, ‬16‭-‬17‭, ‬21‭-‬23 NRSV

  • No road-blocks can block God's coming, and we who are hanging out with the God of gods, get to do demolition work on things that are set up to be roadblocks. 

    • "I myself, Paul, appeal to you by the meekness and gentleness of Christ—I who am humble when face to face with you, but bold toward you when I am away!— I ask that when I am present I need not show boldness by daring to oppose those who think we are acting according to human standards. Indeed, we live as human beings, but we do not wage war according to human standards; for the weapons of our warfare are not merely human, but they have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every proud obstacle raised up against the knowledge of God, and we take every thought captive to obey Christ. We are ready to punish every disobedience when your obedience is complete." 2 Corinthians 10:1‭-‬6 NRSV

  • Recent Blog posts on www.appallinglife.blogspot.com:   [apparently a parasiteResponding to HIS initiatives.; a mate travelling through God's world ; & with God]





2024-01-13

a friend's birthday

2024CE

(Aged people often get dusty minds, not Amanda.)




Amanda has grown

the years they have flown,

till 65 years have gone by,

Still she & her man

have traveled again

& now back at home, they imply


that life's not over

beneath the clover,

and even her work must go on.

Parties continue,

with guts & sinew,

Her lovely cooking has shon.


Her fears she allays

by taking up ways

that move her right into their maws.

Still spritely and bright,

she does shifts at night

she'll willing to walk out of doors.


So she says, & we hear.

We'll see more this year.

She's certainly learning to trust

and love with God's love.

Wisdom "from above" -

may it fill her mind, not just dust.





a mate, traveling through God's world




Oh God please help him to remember what 

he's got in fam'ly, now within this life

you've given us, that starts as one cell, not

at all able to choose in times of strife


for good or evil, we must trust to God,

but when the time was ripe, a point would come

where in his plan we'd learn to do a lot

and step up to be humans - & then some.


And now your spirit is deposit paid

to us that's just the first bit, and there's more.

And thus begins a new life. Now we wade

not just through water, but like him implore


God's help where needed (yet he is the boss).

It's just he only thinks like fam-i-ly,

and often will seem like he's at a loss

and asks what things we'd like to do, and see1.


So when you ask, we'd like to boldly say

the truth as it is here, within us now,

but need your wisdom to help us this day

to learn to ask of you the same, somehow.


What would make your heart swell? - as when you peeked

that day at Jordan, oh so long ago.

When you, who really are quite slow to speak,

spoke from the heavens just to let folk know


that this was your own boy, son of your love,

who had responded fully to you with

the honour he thought due to one above.

And you could not be silent to your kith,


& kin who were about. You must speak out,

that's after looking, list'ning, thirty years,

and through most of our history no doubt.

You're quick to listen, even when through tears2.


And "slow to anger" is a quality

about you3 that we love, and want to learn.

Please help your son in all these, so to free

& then display them more, that's not to spearn


the life of God himself, both Goal & Prize,

and Way to be, to come to live at all

the intersections that we see with eyes

wide open, since you gave us sight, and called!



Footnotes

  1. Mark 10:36,51; John 1:38, 6:67; Rom 7:15-16, 7:24-8:2; James 4:2.

Note this spirit of partnership that characterizes YHWH:

  • God's desire is to live with his people as their god, and that we would live with him, as his people.

  • That the Angel, speaking about Jesus's birth beforehand, said: "WITH God, nothing shall be impossible!"

  • Jesus dignifies those he heals by not simply doing it to them, but joining with them e.g.  the number of times where at least one of the gospel writers mentions some way to participate in the process, the people Jesus heals are given to add to it, or complete it. And then Jesus's explicit words to outline invisible ways they have participated (knowingly, or unknowingly) when he says to these same people words similar to "Your faith has healed you." (Mat 9:22; Mk 10:52; Lk 18:42; 17:19 - and any parallel passages). Yet he is not claiming no involvement for himself. No friendship of partnership is one sided, and that is what is implied by the way Jesus does things with people. And in a few passages Jesus (or his sent messengers) spells out both sides together e.g. Mat 15:28; Acts 3:16.

  1. God's own broken heart, "grieved in his spirit", doesn't stop him taking note of Noah, and Lot, and the Israelites. He still hears their cries, comes down, and gets his hands dirty. (Gen 6:5-8; 18:16-19:22; Exod 3:5-10)

  2. YHWH is the God who is slow to anger (Exod 34:6; Ps 86:15; 103:8; 145:8; Num 14:18; Joel 2:18; Nahum 1:3; Jonah 4:2); hence his children are called to be the same (Ps 37:8; Jam 1:21).



2024-01-11

apparently.. a parasite..

(human leach, or hemisphere in head^)



No hint at first, of strength available.

Just needy, broken, not much pow'r displays.

Capacities all "under the table".

Appears as disenfranchised in its ways.


It looks slightly disabled or quite small

at first, to get within defensive shields

& strategies of others who might fall

for cover jobs, and let seeds drop in fields


they are responsible to oversee.

This creature's given up desires to bless,

though they might still be there inside, quite deep.

It won't let those desires control, at best


it speaks about them, just before it weeps.

Its signature must change to meet its host.

It doesn't want it seen just how it keeps

its home itself. For to it speech is most-


ly not sharing its feelings from inside,

or opening intentions to the world;

but saying things to seem they will confide

in closer places where things get uncurled.


I've seen and felt, experienced might be

a better word to speak of shadows like

this which come near to rule humanity,

submitting it to powers which would spike


its drinks, and treat it like an animal.

My only, necessary, thing to do

is check where I am not doing so well,

& look up, ask for wisdom, listen to


God's leadership of light, and life, & love,

& creativity designed to bless.

Our partnering with* wisdom from above,

whose oversight is good, and bears witness.


Oh God, I'm glad your message, or your word,

your witness to us, bares & opens up 

your heart to us, as one who would be heard

to bear with-ness* to us, to share our cup


of suffering, of troubles in this space.

Your biggest hope is to live WITH us*, here

within your world, seen as a holy place.

Where desert bush might burn, not just appear.


I will respond to your bright hope to live

with* me, by ope'ning, offering my all.

And then I see that any gift you give

is part of growing love and life, a call.


So even slow and painful death with shame,

a crucifiction, then entomb-ment too;

if entered now WITH YOU*, is death in name,

but transforms1 to a sleep before WE DO*.



^  Some new theories of the left & right brain hemispheres and the way they can work together well, paint a picture that is for me a great analogy of how humans are meant to function with and under God: e.g. Ian McGilchrist's book: The Master and His Emmissary, which proposes a picture (derived with the benefit of many studies) of the Right Brain Hemisphere being partly specialized for attention to & understanding of the world we live in, and our place within it, it is paired with its Left Brain Hemisphere which is partly specialized to understand & make language, categorize, and break complex tasks down to chunks that are achievable. Both are needed to affect the world well, and need to communicate through the part that joins the two hemispheres (the corpus callosum). Without the RHS, the LHS is myopic and constrained, more like technology without the ability to consider what is best from an overall perspective (I climbed the ladder, but it was on the wrong wall).. Without the LHS the views of the world and new potentialities which the RHS perceives, are not achieved, and made reality. Some of the ways the brain hemispheres work together are by transmitters that inhibit activity in other parts of the brain, and especially in a similar part on the other side. This inhibition is not to be confused with the inhibition produced by a parasite which does not contribute, but only sucks life from its host.


1. Jesus transforms the fear engendered by the Roman Empire (crucifiction), into a portal of life, and can even say : "unless you deny yourself, & take up your own cross, daily, you cannot be my disciple" (for a disciple is by definition, a follower). And I am only doing this for your sake. This is the only way forward for you, so don't think I am saving you from crucifiction, you are coming with me into it, and through it, out of it, to new life! As Joseph acknowledges at the end of Genesis: 'You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives. So then, don’t be afraid. I will provide for you and your children.’ And he reassured them and spoke kindly to them. Genesis 50:20‭-‬21 NIVUK


*  Note that 

  • God's desire is to live with his people as their god, and that we would live with him, as his people.

  • That the Angel, speaking about Jesus's birth beforehand, said: "WITH God, nothing shall be impossible!"

  • Jesus dignifies those he heals by not simply doing it to them, but joining with them, and the number of times where at least one of the gospel writers mentions some way they are given to participate in the process, to add to it, or complete it,