on waking up 4..

 (for)

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No other purpose, but to just respond

to love that shakes a shoulder,

helps me up, with habits (not to wee in bed - no pond)

or just my failings with setting a clock

(alarm, for yester-afternoon with snooze).

The point is that your thoughts of me all day

alarm me, are not fitting One whose shoes

are big as yours are - unless love will pay

attention to beloved one - “unsized”.

(I hear, just now at 4:30 or so,

a 9 month old who’s happy babbling, wised

up, using his new syllables° “to go”;

and unaware that his tummy that talks

to him with growing hunger is what grows

his mother's bond with him who never balks

at being open with who really knows.

But this is knowing, as Right Hemisphere

of brain can know, relation’ly, HESED*.

Committed to one’s growth both now, and here,

as well as what’s a-coming up ahead.

If there is any way that I might give

you pleasure (though I hardly can believe

it’s even possible to think and live

that way) I want to find it. Not to leave

you high and dry, because you let yourself

relate to me so intimately and

allow me to join with the source of health

and life, and let pain help me understand*.

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° saying contentedly  "um, um, um", and "add add add"  but which after maybe 15 or 20 minutes grew in strength to be wailings then screams.

D*  HESED is the Hebrew word for the tender love of husband for his beloved wife. (In some ways always a surprise to both, because it is always fresh and new, living and growing, bringing futures & possible beings into being-ness, focused not on old past occurrences between them, but on fresh experiences and delights for the whole new being being born of the two becoming one). It is eternal love, loving kindness, steadfast love, covenant love, etc, as Jesus the Christ of God disclosed to his Ambassador of his New Kingdom (Paul)... it is really only this kind of love that is eternal, with faithfulness and hopefulness being simply its clothing in this world.

d*  thinking of sonship (= discipleship), and that prophetic insight into the relationship of YHWH and the Servant of YHWH expressed by Isaiah: " He wakes me up every morning; he makes me alert so I can listen attentively as disciples do.^[c]"(see Isa 50:4-11)

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