look out, slow down, see clear, step forward now ’n go near...

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I'm so affected by those round about,

by people whom I love, and want to please.

I’m scared of what it means with those who lout-

ishly accuse, command, so I’ll appease.

I’d cease to be the person who you made,

or play the part you wanted me to play

within this drama, with its heat and shade,

and problems which show while you seem away.

This shows my insecurities up well.

It shows my own propensities to act

instinctively, defensive of the self,

not with the view that’s overall in fact.

Not closely, well connected with the GOD,

the spirit of creative love that’s formed

a world like this, and me to serve the lot,

to work as partner with your ways en-normed.

Ennorm-ously in need of your input, 

inhibiting affects that slow me up,

to check, and tune, and get in step, without

just throwing in the tow'l when I’m shown up.

So here I am, so weak and immature,

who knows so little of your kinda love,

HESED*, that lives in covenant with who’re

a willing partner with who’s “from above”.

So my first call is from yourself: “Respond…" -

in kind, to all the care you've shown to me.

My first love will then draw the others on;

do you see, Paul, how they are then set free?

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* HESED is the Hebrew word for loving-kindness, loyal love, covenant love, and is based on keeping one’s own word, affected by, but not predicated upon the other’s responses.

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