of I-ness, and of Existence

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the source

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The myst'ry is that GOD has hopes & plans

that he in wisdom will not realise

until he gets us to where we began

somehow with trust intact deeper than lies

of judgements made by those who know so much

compared to the creative love that put

this world together, & then keeps it, such

that in this dream of his, things are so good

for us to play our part on hist'ry's stage

as agents with de-terminating pow'r.

We look around for help (in any age)

& find sometimes that none is here, this hour.

Well, we're so "concrete" (in development-

al stages, like Piaget found), in fact

that we will over-look (as under meant),

or not see through the concrete to abstract.

I am not positing a blame with this.

As one who has dimentia doesn't plan

to bring the heart ache that comes on with his

or her own limiting, since it began.

Or as when wee small children learn to "know"

or live like things invisible to them

are still within the world of being, so

that Mum & Dad might still be seen again

when they've gone out for dinner, they don't cease, 

because their child cannot see them just now.

The present, source of being, longs to ease

our life, in partnership with us somehow.

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to gəther

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Difficulties in a few of us connecting regularly with a mate who has a 3hrs time difference, and no weekly roster.

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Oh God, please help us learn to see just how

we can do what your kids would likely do

to keep in touch & help us in each "now"

to serve, to see your rule extended too.

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to grow with no hardship below?

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Through trouble we must go 

to enter God's good reign.

For this world, you must know

rebells at love, though shame

is quite accepted, and 

is worn as garment to

allow an "understand-

ing" - (cover up, eschew

good com-pan-y that's come

to visit and to walk.

Our fears, though often dumb

at times will speak out, talk.

It's true, we often blame.)

Which makes some problems for

a friendship with the same

ONE's who would help us more.

But if they don't react,

and do absorb pain more,

their help can quite impact

the outcome, & restore

relationships again.

Because of them we live.

So grateful thanks remain

appropriate to give!

But moving forward will

be "carrying a cross"

he warned us; so until

we follow him, we're lost

in our own naked-shame,

repulse of who's around

when we feel it, we blame

or hide from slightest sound

of help, or fun that's come

to walk with us and share,

to lead us through what some

call not dream, but nightmare.

Unless our leader led

us forward killing death

within a self, and bled

out that old life & breath.

And modelled it quite plain-

ly, not himself in need

of taking death to blame,

but just to love in deed!

And all fulfilled, with grace

and style of broken heart-

ed god. I see that face

and kneel. This is my start!

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MUCH HELL!

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A friend, was driving peacefully, & was hit by another car, head-on. The other driver was under the influence of a chemical instead of a human spirit trying to contribute goodness to the world, and had hit two other cars already, had an unrestrained toddler in the car, was unlicensed, and didn't stop. Chaos!  My friend had many damages to arms & legs, and has been in one hospital bed for the last 2 months, in pain, with many lovely people helping & many hours of operations all of which is aiming to work along with God's gift of a self-healing body. But there have been great difficulties along with this. Like what? Try to imagine. Or else ask her. She might tell you, though it is hard to even talk about them. I think she might want to forget them & move on!

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Ah, not mush good - her legs have been for months!

Except maybe, for keeping her in bed,

in one small room; so no need for those hunts

to find Michelle. May she find heart instead!

Yes "heart"! You think that suffering and pain

can be a portal to another way?

Well, all the people who inspire retain

some scars of suffering, or still today

continue in some suffering, still now.

Oh God who's present here and now as well

as there & then, when pain is gone somehow;

you brought your presence even into hell

when Jesus conquered death after his shot

at telling us the way forward has hard-

ship, suffering, and pinned to one small spot

we'll be bossed round & made to walk the yard

with no account that we would rather not.

Can it be true at all that we signed up 

for following a sales pitch like he got

to spin to us? When he drank up that cup

and asked, like David who had gone before…

My God, My God.. forsaken's where I'm at(!

though I know that you hear me now for sure)

What's most important to us in this spat?

The understanding of our own; or your

own friendship, and capacity to change

a hell into a heaven, as before

when chaos then was ordered and arranged…

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Necessary?

Helpful? 

Harmful?

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If I start off with words we use to clar-

If I communicate to you, I'd say .. 

If I presume: to plant one needs to scar-

If I would land in wood land here one day.

I'll live from my presumptions, bring their st-

I'll HAVE to use all learned speech process(es)…

I'll see that where I can include them w-

I'll lively introductions make. I "SAYS" !

The NEEDS of life we count up as the things

that must be well supplied while life sustains.

Though food is often put forth as what brings

us energy, no fetal life complains

with food not in it's gut. It's better off

without some outside food to float on in

to mouth, then use some peristaltic cough

to move things through the system to begin

its life within the womb 'S energized

by other - means IT doesn't need such food.

Its strength seeps in through other means despised.

What's necessary, is what's really good

TO DO (: to listen, not speak, is our need

to do). Our actions can 'speak' more than words.

And to grow plants in soil, it's mostly seed

(though mixed in with the soil, sometimes there's turds).

Love comes as its own source of energy..

love somehow tunes to frequencies untouched

by other kinds of tuning that we see

around us. Rarely forced, though often nudged.

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"Martha, Martha, you are worried and upset over all these things! 42 Only a few things are necessary, perhaps only one. Mary has discovered it….” Luke 10:38-42 (turn phones to landscape orientation) (+ see footnotes of verse 41,42)

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washing, & walking* a long way^ with..

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My commitment to continue to live freshly from an allegiance to the leadership of the one now appointed "Leader of humanity", singled out by his volunteering to humble himself & to let God raise him.

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I saw again, a way that wends away

from living by the principles today

of my desires, as animal/A.I.;

to give the kind of love that mends a try.

That is to say, give it a chance to "take ..

"take over", have its way with me, to bake

me as it would. Like parents "raise" a child

and have their hopes for it to not "run wild"

yet not to be an automaton thing;

an animal that lives by instinct-ing

at level of reptilian, or frog

(not nurtured like a mammal, even hog).

But humans, only they can understand,

capacities they have as woman/man.

Do you - who read this, who are not a bot

that feigns it's "understanding" but can not

be much more than "predictive text" on phone,

that keeps a record, then "predicts", can own

and "see" in light of purpose, over-all

and work in line with bigger principles.

No, not just sterile principles outside

of me, but things brought in to here abide,

to even "own" (not as offspring, but child),

not tamed by soft de-sires, love run wild!

For love can "see", & navigates to bless-

it works to see I get more choice, not less.

Its way to be within reality, 

its raison d'etre, that's the way for me!

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*  walking → war king! (Against chaos! Well, hardly even a war; enlisting it to serve his purposes. e.g. "get behind me satan" - I'm the leader. You, follow me!)

^ reminiscent of Eugene Peterson's book: a long obedience in the same direction

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George affirmed his life's allegiance today…

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Following an ancient rite of washing away old independence allegiances, George was washed in the ocean at Woolongong today, as a definite analog of his commitment to continuing to grow an allegiance to the leadership of the one now appointed "Leader of humanity", singled out by his volunteering to humble himself, & to let God raise him.

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Young Georgieo ain't porgie(o), and he

ain't quite so young as he once was, before.

Though sometimes he might gorge-eo, we see

a wirey chap, with not much fat, for sure.

Some people call him curious, and brave,

with wide int'rests, appreciations too

of other people, and ways to behave;

he might seem silly, just a joking dude.

It's true he's often smiling, engaging;

some think he is laid-back, yet fills the space.

He has an air that's open, genuine,

he's open to be learning, not just trace

the picture as it is, he's learning to

draw what he sees, relationships do dwell,

and pieces are important, even new

thoughts won't just be thrown out, he'll weigh them well.

With warmth & love of life, mischievious,

some say he's "resonant", accomplice in

the stuff of life, not often devious,

but smart, without that boastfulness that's been

the downfall of our race; we think we're gods,

who don't need Father God to raise us up.

So George's unrushed thing's a bit at odds

with self-made man. He thinks more like a cup

that's not the drink itself. Receptacle

of something that keeps life connected to

a body. It can be a spectacle,

or just a restful presence there for you.

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3) Humanity starts with humility ...

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And humans will begin 

right at the start:

with  TELLING stories, 

not "folk what to do" - they catch the heart!

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It's life and death for us - to follow through!

For action, not perception, changes things.

We hear, and see, and watch & pray. Do you

get life lighting on you through follow-wings?

The 3 year old who asks to have a stor-

ied tale told them as good gift with good will,

appreciates its goodness, knows this lore

of true humility that aims to fill

the heart, and head, and will to choose to serve,

not just to be served by the others who

they meet, but it is true they've got some nerve -

to walse on in, and ask, and sit there too!

Oh God, you are the maker of all worlds…

The heavenly, the earthly, the whole lot.

We choose to learn from you, not just unfurl

our plan to take this over, call each shot!

And so, though we think we have learned true things

we know it's often how to hold them well

& how to give them legs and arms, or wings

that makes this more like heaven, or like hell.

When you think bodies need good food you take

care in it's preparation - looks, smells, tastes.

Because you know its goodness, a mistake

is problematic. Care & work aren't wastes.

Instead of telling folk what's to be done,

as little tin gods strutting round the place,

we want to learn to tell stories, have fun

with Dad-jokes, riddles, rhymes, as God displays.

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