in charge.. who is and who will be, for who are his are AGENTS. See!

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talking tabernacle (God's house/ tent)!

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I must, as God would tune me in 

to what's unhelpful, not just sin,

take charge as he would, who is love.

As agent of who is above,

I am to rule, down here below

so that creative love might show

its presence in this temple\tent

though even now the curtain's rent

that's torn in two, from top right down,

intending to display the crown

of heaven here throughout this place

of worship, not just holy space

in heaven, or the central tent,

where High Priest only could be sent,

for now a lowly priest like me

has been anointed, all may see

the reign of God lived here on Earth

as in the heavens. This is worth

all that I am, all that I have.

So now I would learn how to nav-

igate with you right here, my Lord,

my Rabbi\Teacher, I'm assured

that you will never leave me high

& dry, to then be ended by

the rocks below, or others yet.

Your constant love, I won't forget!

Your presence here, I'll mediate

till you appear, through this front gate!

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A mate is crook..

Hi Paul. Rat tested this morning and unfortunately I'm still positive. So sorry I won't be joining you! Much love💕

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Pity. 

God help him by your spirit's healing pow'r

and help his mind to rest himself in you,

your will that takes account of place & hour,

and what we need to grow up like Him too.

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It's come up...

 Tothisday..

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They come to play, the 10th of June,

and here's the day… it's come so soon!

Sam and Ebby, (not Lola but) Poppy,

Pete and Sophie, and Davie and Dan,

Tullia, and Hamish, Dunk and Millie,

May, and Polly, and Gill & Hann,

Trina the Omi, Grand-dad the Paul, Winston the doggy, whose legs are quite small,

Thinking is foggy. Training will come, Saturday arvey, in Orange sun.

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The mindset of a learner/ disciple - like Jesus.

 (cf. Proverbs chapter 2, verses 1-8)

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Whatever you need do, to see that you

do Learn,  my son, & take into your life,

each thing, or way to now respond (unto

my gifts, your circumstances - with their strife)

that I teach you, do learn to not  forget. 

Instill within responses that you make.

Take in my will, and attitudes, so yet

they are lived in this world, where I would take

on flesh and bones, to incarnate my love

& truth, that is imparted in my Word.

My message, wisdom, coming from above

& given livingly. My sheep have heard,

because they partner with me (with a hand

from ears I gave them), quickly Listen they, 

& actively they try to understand.

They ask, and too request, in humble way

for knowledge & for insight, while they Look

for this as treasure seekers work, & bleed.

This is my promise, that I give to hook

my children in: "You'll know..", and "You'll succeed.."!

The LORD (Yahweh) gives wisdom (-not as pay),

real knowledge, understanding come from him,

the source of help,  protection in the way

of righteousness & honesty undimmed.

Protection, guarding, are his specialty-

all those who are devoted true to him,

to the extent they'll treat others fairly;

he sets the guard - with swords & cherubim.

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Proverbs 2:1-8 GNBUK

1Learn        what I teach you, my child, 

and never forget what I tell you

to do. 

2Listen        to what is wise 

and try to understand it. 

3Yes, 

beg for knowledge; 

plead for insight. 

4Look          for it as hard as you would for 

               (as you would for) silver or

some hidden treasure. 

5If you do, -- you 

               you will know what it means to 

               fear the LORD 

and you will succeed 

in learning about God. 

6It is the LORD (Yahweh)

who gives wisdom; 

from him come knowledge and

understand-

ing. 

7He provides help and 

protection

for those who are righteous (righteous) and honest. 

8He protects those who 

treat others fairly,

and guards those who are devoted to him.

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My Question: How will I actually learn what God is teaching me? (sometimes I can't even remember it 3 days later. In other words I DO forget. 

My Answer (so far): That is why I do these poemish things, or used to keep a quiet-time note-book, or tell a friend/ brother, keep a record, an artistic record e.g even just my recount of yesterday (Tuesday).

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What a Tuesday!

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Another normal day on which to choose for God, not Paul, as the ultimate Emperor of God's world. 

A world where I find I am an immature, foolish, frail, weak, poor, reactive creature; on an obstacle-course-like-adventure requiring maturity, wisdom, strength, endurance, and much rich ability. 

The big question seems to be: "Will I trust the invisible source of life, creative love, and goodness? Or try to go it alone?"

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Last week. .. 

                     A teacher from a local school rings to book me as a casual teacher for either Mon or Tue of this week. My wife, Katrina, has the Monday off, so I say "Tuesday", the teacher confirms and we hang up… But in putting it into my calendar I note that Tuesday is booked for a "cystoscopy" at the hospital. So I immediately ring back the teacher who booked me, and am able to change it to Monday instead. Thank you God, for helping me to remember to write this down, and look it up, and think to act immediately (many times I have not done any one of these).

The weekend. ..

                           Recently, we've been flat out, trying to be ready for an event just gone, and one at the end of this month, but, sometime on the week-end… while driving the car around, to some important but not urgent thing, I get a remembrance/ inkling that the car "Registration" was due earlier than I thought it was (which was in two months time)… It is not until Sunday arvo that I get a few minutes to check my emails.. "Oh no, it's due tomorrow (Monday)". I find a list on the internet of local businesses that can do it. None are open Sunday. I am due to be at school at 8:15am Monday, and I'm a casual teacher, on duty, till ~3:30pm. Thank you God for that remembrance, and being able to make a time to check!

Monday. ..

                 No responses to my phone calls on the way to school, while my Katrina drives. No time to ring during the day. So, I contentedly enjoy what I do have time for, with whom I am. As I walk out of school, I start ringing through the list… the place that did it last year has an engaged tone, every time I ring. Most can fit me in - in about 3 weeks' time. Katrina drops me off at the place that was engaged (they are "closed" permanently?), and at 4 other places, & I ring others. Finally I find a tyre place that can fit me in Tuesday arvo (the next day, better than 3 weeks time). Wow. Thank you God!

Maybe I'll be finished at hospital by then? But no, even if I am out, I'm not supposed to drive for 24 hrs after my  general anesthetic. We'll have to see how it works. And, the car can only be driven from home straight to the mechanic's, then straight home, unless it passes, and we can serendipitously straightaway register it online. Katrina's work is 5 blocks away from the safety check place. She might be able to leave it there in the morning and walk the rest of the way to work. I might have to ride my push bike, but then can I walk or ride home? Katrina thinks not. Eek, help us work this out please God (meanwhile, as Jesus taught us to think: "No use to worry"). I will trust you to help us somehow (even if the car "fails", and we have to walk, ride, or get public transport), I've seen you make horror stories into blessed things. Thank you.

I get the thought to ask my local community  if anyone has the time and transport etc to drop me off and pick me up. Within a short time Graeme offers to, in their family car. Thank you God for giving me a family beyond by "nuclear family", & for them partnering with you (& me).

Tuesday. ..

                  Early this morning, I remember a neighbour telling me that one of the car's brake lights wasn't working. Before an early morning coffee Graeme (from two doors down) checks it with me. Yup, the left one is shot. Rats! Oh well God will help somehow or other. We plan options that come to mind about buying a globe from an auto electrician near the tyre place and fixing it on the way to the hospital. Graeme's wife Bev says: What about the old (unregistered) car of the same model in front of it (kept for spares). Graeme & I go "Duh, of course!". I find and exchange the globe, and in the process see a panel that I have damaged jack-kniffing a trailer into it. I find a bolt and just have time to fix it roughly. Well, God, thanks for my neighbour who told me weeks ago, for helping me remember it, for Graeme's help, for Bev's ability to observe and suggest, and helping me to be determined to ring back when I missed their call. And then for helping me to notice the panel damage, and get it done just in time for Katrina to get to drop it off and still get to work,  and in time for Graeme to be able to drop me at the hospital. Whew… that's all before 9am.

A Mr. Bean moment or two. Then into the operating suit. I am still COVID negative. They get me into the operating room quickly. There is a tumour in the bladder, the kind that is least likely to be a problem, but it is all cut out, & cauterized. Don't see the specialist for a month, by which time  results should be back. Graeme picks me up, & I join him & Bev for lunch, do some writing, and the safety check place rings about putting two new tyres on, and two more bulbs. Should still be ready on time, by ~4pm. I let Katrina know and have a snooze. At 5pm (when they shut) the safety check place rings to say they are about to shut… Are we going to collect the car, and pay? I say I can pay by card now. But I can't find my credit card that is linked to the phone, that I mostly use nowadays. And Katrina is just finishing up at work (she's had a busy day). Graeme helps out again, and drops me with my phone down there. I pay with my phone. It glitches, and doesn't work. It is nearly 5:15pm. I know to not give up, even when at first I do not succeed. Then it does work. Thank you God! It all goes through. He tells me it is possible to complete the rego on line now, even though it is now 5:15pm. I walk out of the safety check place as Katrina gets to the door. She drives home, while I start to do the rego online. She cooks dinner while I complete the rego. It works. The dinner is delicious. Katrina runs out to a meeting at the council. I sit down here on the lounge,  and say "Wow! What a Tuesday!" & write this to help me recall and value it, & to recall & value who has shared it with me, and who will share it with me. .. Thank you!

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When growth's not helpful..

 

With my strong son-in-law last week-end, we tried to use some galvanized iron piping as a conduit, a covering or protection, for a plastic water hose to go inside of, under a pathway. The two ends looked ok, like this picture above.

There was a slow bend in between. But the plastic hose could not go though the bend. When I looked more carefully down the pipe, I saw why. There were large "growths" of thick hard rust bulging from the inside at the slow bend. Like these hard growths: 

See the pipe below & the left pipe of the two below:

The growths may be able to be filed away with a metal file, but they certainly were not soft or squashy. They could not be brushed aside. The plastic garden hose could not be forced through by a strong man.

They have become a picture for me of "growths" that stop conduit or piping from taking stuff inside them

On the net I found these 2 additional  pictures of what can happen:

And now I recognize my own experience of this kind of blockage, slowing, stopping a flow of largess, or strength, or patience, or capacity to live above, or just "wear" other  people's rudeness, or ignorance, or judgementalism, their lack of thoughtfulness & commitment to building others up. I knew it to be starting to happen with a few classes at a school recently when I have done casual teaching. I called out to God for help, and let him flow his love through me. I felt like I was too shrivelled, or inflexible, or foolish to go forward with these children in this state. "Sin" can be seen as simply any growth within us that stops the flow of love from God's enormous supply. As the city council water supply can be shut down by rust reactions in a steel pipe, when the galvanizing has been compromised. My "growths", my weakenings, my reactions seem to have the power to stop the creative love that keeps the world existing. God, thank you for sending Jesus to save me from these, my "sins".

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who conquors*..

God of growth, enables his children to overcome*..

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The other week-end I was overseeing 20 people in a full-day's reflection on, and immersion in, God's help that has come to us in the Christ of God, and the Spirit of God. I flapped around a bit, unclearly, at the beginning, trying to cram too much into the start. But worse than that, I ended up allowing the end to be torpedoed, by arguing with a few, in a public setting about an important issue, instead of making that a thing to do together at another time that would not derail everyone else's evening. This was to have been a reflective time to help us be open to God's beautiful, glorious gift of his son, whom God has made both "Lord" and "Christ" & of his spirit who helps us to recall and think clearly & to extend his covenant love & thoughtfulness (Acts 2:36).

On that night, in the last 5min, the spirit helped me to recognize some of what I had done, and to give a heart-felt appology to those there. And, in the next week, he helped me to see, how to more closely follow Yeshua in that kind of situation, to fortify me against that small mindedness and thoughtlessness towards the people around me. He has been doing it, enabling change & growth! I experienced, in this world of his, the power of loving awareness allowing me to absorb untrue accusations (& assertions) made by people who don't really know, but who are guessing. It is only a beginning, & I am not there consistently, yet, but with this kind of help I am now confident that I will get there. Hallelujah!

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The pain of seeing what I had done to

some friends and neighbours who had come to rest,

to open up to God, Yahweh, but who

were now subjected to an ego-fest..

Embarassment at my own nappy's poos,

the refuse of my unsubmitted choice-

-es, thinking more of my, than your, issues,

you mostly argue with you girls and boys

in private, so they really might be won

back to you, who has loved them all the time,

but thoughtfulness and love are not just some

nice attributes of yours. I want them mine.

And you do too, for hesed's at the core

of who you are, your foetal god's must be-

come like that in our choices, like you,  more

like character of Christ. Do that in me!

And here you are, just answering my prayer,

before I even prayed it. I love you.

You are determined that I will get there.

To know these people as your children who

you love intensely, so gave us your son,

your one and only, darling of your life,

to let us see your love come through* this one

and see your life that conquors* ALL our strife,

and difficulties, death, and fears of pain,

and loneliness, abandonment, censure,

of lack of our necessities, & stain.

I know you'll help me conquor* even more!

 

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* Rev 3:21

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Working in God's world

Txt2me:

Paul. Normally would love to do this (catch up over a cuppa). Still tied up with (a friend) and the caravan however. ..

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TxtFromMe:

Oh God, please help them, bless them with  

ideas,

& wisdom for creative ways to move

this project forward, 

help them to see clear

so they will learn from what's been done by who've

gone right ahead. And let them get the gist

of kinds of answers to such problems which

have been tackled before, then help them list

the parts, and overcome the hurdles pitched

at them in trying to bring bigger hopes

and purposes, or outcomes with the stuff

of Earth, while trying to make do, & cope

so as to make good use, and make enough.

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Oh, I love you Yahweh, my lord, & my GOD!

 

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Your ways are higher (& deeper, and broader, and fuller) than ours, and I will praise you!

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Please use this body to inhabit here 

this Earth of yours, that you said was so good.

And when I happen to look up, and hear

the sound of Yahweh walking, may I, could

I still go walking with you? Enoch did!

Now I've been caught within your "trap", and I

would gladly follow you. Yes you are hid

within this world, where people love to try

this godliness with great contentment too.

But I would not just try to copy on

my own, for that's a dead end "way to you"

It really is uniting that brings song

to come & be together, in your house,

the one you've gifted special-ly to us.

We hear that you are quiet as a mouse,

and say to us to eat you up. No fuss.

You say that we're your home. But that's absurd.

(Except that I am husband to a wife,

as such I know your own statement. That word-

's been said to whom I love more than my life)

I hear from your good prophets* I'm on track;

I'm learning to live deeper in your self,

and let you deeper into me, and back

& forth, just as true love would bring good health.

The pictures in this world are mysteries

they're portals, gates, or doors to other realms.

I'm trav'ling with you, through the heat and freeze,

in partnership, though you are at the helm!

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1Kings 19:11-13, Zechariah 4:6; Hosea 1:7 (Hebrew, +4 English translations, + 4 more English translations) heeding, responding to, taking note of, the promptings of God (the presence of God, the breath of God, the gentle whisper of God)

The sound of a gentle whisper. 

Not by might, not by power, but by my .. (sheer silence followed by my gentle promptings).. says the Lord.

Yahweh, creative love, was about to pass by 

.. (please don't pass on passed us, or pass over us, your presence is our salvation from our insanity and falling shortnesses)

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We ask you to heed this our request: 

Please help us to heed you.

Soft heart, soft voice, soft eyes.. 

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Psalm 46

Night out? or in?

Txt2me: Hi Paul, sorry for slow reply, was in the dinner and bed time routine 🙂 Thanks for the invite, but my wife has dancing tomorrow night, so I'll have the kids for dinner. Hope to make it work another time.

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TextFromMe: No probs. Go well with those precious ones. 

God help this man to serve those  little ones

whom you have given to his care for this..

this very purpose, with what fuss & fun

suffuses life on Earth that's yours (& his*)

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* The ruler God has chosen to act as his agent, in ruling God's Earth.

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when it hurts ... ?

 Txt2me: Just busted my Achilles - heading to hospital soon. please pray for a good result

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Oh God, give wisdom, creativity, 

and insight to the Doctors, Nurses, &

the radiographers who help to see

what's happened in that other secret land

under the skin of this man's ankle, leg,

& foot where that ol' rope has seemed to burst,

and use his presence in that place to peg

your tabernacle, there that seems so cursed.

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