2026-03-13

“deep” LIFE:

understanding and love!



My love and my peace come finally from God, 

my worth and energy, thriving from him.

And when you think of it, it would be odd 

if it were otherwise, for we'd grow dim


when we weren’t recognised, accepted or,

acknowledged by the others - light might fade.

but we are heirs of Christ with his “much more”,

who conquers by the love-light God has made


to shine, and when it’s dark  the light shines on,

it travels through the void quite easily. 

It travels light! And then, by God, it’s gone.

It’s sent! And then its smile (uncheesily)


is seen on faces where it lands, the truth

is that it has direction - always OUT,

into the dark, with energy of youth,

determined toddler, but without the pout!


Its energy goes with it where it's sent.

In that way it’s still “of” the  source it’s “from”.

It’s light, by nature. Light itself is meant..

- and shows up ev'ry-thing it lights upon,


but doesn't have much “push” itself, more “let” -

the situation now be clearly seen,

or understood, perceived, not to forget

so easily, and light is rarely mean


or heavy handed. Still, we know the sun,

from its distance to Earth, sources our life,

for plants store photons, sent & too begun,

& give us food and breath, in “all our strife*”.



Footnote
e* - “all our strife under the sun” repeated phrase in Qoheleth (Ecclesiastes).



2026-03-12

The exception to the rule (of late)...


return to the beginning (love & faithfulness kiss)



Well what was happening to my old Dad 

and what was happening within him too 

when I was with him there for just a tad 

a week ago I saw what he could do


when he was not in panic, manic mode,

but sharing life in weakness and in pain;

he couldn't talk so loud or  long, he rode

the wave, confused, determined. Then again..


his son did not step in much to adjust

the outcomes, or to stop him pestering.

The son was honouring, as well he must

be if he’s not un-grateful, un-fitting.


So both, in strength and love of God relied,

and loveliness related in this world -

a little piece of heaven was espied.

Oh God I choose for that where I am hurled


by you the ever trusting, faithful one.

I, and my Dad with strength of God of love,

will learn to trust in you as your own son

who’d grow like his own father who’s above,


below, around, before & aft-

-ter too. Your wisdom & your faithfulness

we’ll use, aspire to (though we are daft

and often draw the wrong conclusions). Bless


me farther on, and farther in to you,

to grow old and to die well. God you showed

the later (& the former). May we too

fulfill your word to us, so you’ve not “blowed*”. 



Footnotes
d* - blowed up like a baloon, or just “hot air” blowing out in useless, meaninglessness.

2026-03-11

friend's @ a work related conference…



Yes, God we thank you that you've sent them there, 

as really doing things that should be done, 

and part of that's the friendship that's aware

of bigger friend who's here with ev'ryone!


!

!

2026-03-10

holy carelessness


of the eternal NOW…



In tastes I've had of this (or in my dreams)

when this makes sense, describes a state that’s real..

the most important thing right then, it seems

is no longer “get ready”, so the feel


or focus, is not future, but the fun

of living life right now, in right rela-

tion with all those around here “under sun*”;

or as the Christ’s Ambassador might say:


“as much as is now possible, as far

as things depend on you, that is from your…

your side of your relationships, you are

responsible to live at peace, and more,


to now allow for thriving to be birthed,

not just with friends, but enemies as well*.”

He got that Way of living on God’s Earth, 

developing relationships ’gainst hell,


from you know who, who was himself the true…

true model of all that he said, himself.

So as that Paul himself was wont to do,

I bow before this Master of True Health.


And understand, in bowing down (by choice -

not in self-serving weighing of future

recompense or payments back in poise

or fashion then accorded) - Here we are


right in the holy carelessness of that

Eternal Now, where God himself - my breath,

my food & drink, quite freely comes to bat

in partnership as blasphemous as death.



n* - life “under the sun” is a term used by Eclessiastes to refer to life on Earth as we know it, without much knowledge of & therefore reference to heaven
l* - Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them… . If it is possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all.(Romans 12:14-21)

2026-03-08

cadarva "larva"


(or "from above" Love)



There is a chance for me - ’coz every cell, 

within my body has your written word

of life and love, and wisdom, who can tell -

your great amazing way is like absurd-


-ly good, and wonderful, above our “might”.

Your ways beggar belief.

’ don’t have a clue!

I’ll trust you even though I'm not too bright,

’n it  doesn’t honour you much when I do.


But here I am just trusting your good word.

I think that’s good and right, because you keep

your word, and that’s what  keeps all hell deterred,

along with death and pain - what makes folk weep…


And keeping your own word’s your kind of love,

not as a needy “I desire..” thing,

but my real needs fulfill, as “from above”

you look, and see, and know. You are the king!


The king of love, provision, & request

(from me, for my own good, to help me sing,

bring gladness, pleasure, power, and the best

of disciplines that come from treasuring). 


Your ways aren’t of the dirty predator*.

But disciplined yourself, you help me learn

good manners and to think (as editor*)

before I speak, or act, or welcome, spearne,


allow others to “do their thing” dispense,

with me, to me, or me to them as well

(somewhat, because we have some influence).

You bring the smell of heaven, not of hell!



Footnotes
*r - Thinking of the models of an honourable man and woman, enmeshing each other in all of their lives, each for the advancement, development and growth of the other, as a good marriage becomes over time -
compared to & contrasted with -
the abusive use of another when they have less power or influence, portrayed by men like Jeffrey Epstein with his massage payments and his Island, affecting women from the USA and England, and Monsieur (Dominique) Pelicot with his drugging, sedation, and hiring out of his wife in France;
& their methods being contrasted with the methods of a very powerful creator who only interrupts our rulership when asked to do so. e.g. the Psalmist’s words, followed by the prophet Isaiah’s words spoken back, from God to his people:
“Teach me your ways in such a way that I will be enabled  to, and in actuality will, go in them.. (PLW after Psalm 86:11 etc)
or 
O LORD, teach me how you want me to live! Then I will obey your commands. Make me wholeheartedly committed to you! 
(Psalm 86:11 NET, for Hebrew and others, link to Other English translations

“Has not my hand made all these things, and so they came into being?’ declares the Lord. ‘These are the ones I look on with favour: those who are humble and contrite in spirit, and who tremble at my word.
[4] so I also will choose harsh treatment for them and will bring on them what they dread. For when I called, no-one answered, when I spoke, no-one listened. They did evil in my sight and chose what displeases me.’ [5] Hear the word of the Lord, you who tremble at his word; ‘Your own people who hate you, and exclude you because of my name, have said, “Let the Lord be glorified, that we may see your joy!” Yet they will be put to shame.
[10] ‘Rejoice with Jerusalem and be glad for her, all you who love her; rejoice greatly with her, all you who mourn over her. [11] For you will feed and be satisfied at her comforting breasts; you will drink deeply and delight in her overflowing abundance.’ [12] For this is what the Lord says: ‘I will extend peace to her like a river, and the wealth of nations like a flooding stream; you will feed and be carried on her arm and dandled on her knees. [13] As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you; and you will be comforted over Jerusalem.’ [14] When you see this, your heart will rejoice and you will flourish like grass; the hand of the Lord will be made known to his servants, but his fury will be shown to his foes.
[18] ‘And I, because of what they have planned and done, am about to come and gather the people of all nations and languages, and they will come and see my glory. [19] ‘I will set a sign among them, and I will send some of those who survive to the nations – to Tarshish, to the Libyans and Lydians (famous as archers), to Tubal and Greece, and to the distant islands that have not heard of my fame or seen my glory. They will proclaim my glory among the nations. [20] And they will bring all your people, from all the nations, to my holy mountain in Jerusalem as an offering to the Lord – on horses, in chariots and wagons, and on mules and camels,’ says the Lord. ‘They will bring them, as the Israelites bring their grain offerings, to the temple of the Lord in ceremonially clean vessels. [21] And I will select some of them also to be priests and Levites,’ says the Lord. [22] ‘As the new heavens and the new earth that I make will endure before me,’ declares the Lord, ‘so will your name and descendants endure.” (Isaiah 66:2, 4-5, 10-14, 18-22 NIVUK)


2026-03-06

at work in the ruins

(in this world, but not of it..)



Oh what a privilege to share new life

with people who will work along with who

made this whole Universe, with all its strife,

and complex e-co-sys-tem-ic stuff too.


And how’d’e-do ’is greeting -  with a “Hi!”?

o’ ’lo? which must go up or down to reach

each person. I must pull my head in, try

to not just entertain or even teach


but simply be “of benefit” in all

I do and say (and even think) towards

the people I will contact, to not fall

into the habits of machines. But gods


who, though they're foetal, and not even “out”,

but still “in secret”, inside this great womb,

can start to make some choices - not to pout,

or tantrum! They’re part of the  anti-doom!


So, yup! There’s always trouble in this world.

And we’ll be quite involved in it, right at

the centre, often times we have been hurled 

right at it; God’s response team’s here for that!


For crucifixion trouble, maybe Jo-

seph, with his “first-born son” following sure.

And many others under that Nero.

For Peter all its horror was ignored.


For being thrown to Lions, there was Dan.

Then cent’ries later “Christians” in Rome.

St Patrick with those dogs, and Paul, (a man

the other year) in Thailand, Steve at home.



2026-03-05

Newly


imagined!



Oh God, to learn to think, in truth, help me

to do the practice, needed to assess,

to be in touch with your reality,

and less affected by appearances*!


You’ve given me the tools of trade I need,

to be a human - being here on Earth

in eco-system* which can fairly bleed,

in body* with changed blood-flow at its birth.


And offered then to share your wisdom too,

in fact it seems you’re very keen to. So

not hanging back, not scared of what we’ll do,

you’re lovingly determined t’help us grow.


And your determination to just bless,

I rarely see on Earth these days except

in settings of a fam’ly, where duress

is not just leaving angry folk bereft.


That real determined love that "digs in" for

the long haul, and for keeping its own word,

and not ’coz its desires made that call,

but ’coz it chooses to - in that absurd


‘ly supra-rational, but human way,

that doesn’t come to us from lower down,

or modelling, as A.I. does, or  say

the hemisphere* that’s left, without the crown.


But as we learn from more mat-u-re ones,

what love and patience is, and humour too,

we grow more human as we play for fun,

and dance instead of march. And ‘old’ grows new*!



Footnotes
s* “You are righteous, O Lord, and your judgments are right.” (Psalms 119:137); “You shall not render an unjust judgment; you shall not be partial to the poor or defer to the great: with justice you shall judge your neighbor. [16] You shall not go around as a slanderer among your people, and you shall not stand idly by when the blood of your neighbor is at stake: I am the Lord. [17]  “You shall not hate in your heart anyone of your kin; you shall reprove your neighbor, or you will incur guilt yourself. [18] You shall not take vengeance or bear a grudge against any of your people, but you shall love your neighbor as yourself: I am the Lord. (Leviticus 19:15-18); “Do not judge by appearances, but judge with right judgment.” (John 7:24)
m* “ecosystem” can stand for our Earth, seen as a whole Ecosystem, with all its interdependence, and diverse beings and interrelatedness, OR our individual bodies, with on average, its 29-36 trillion very varied human cells, and who knows if it is a similar amount of bacteria, fungal, protozoan, and algal, not to mention nematodes and flukes, & insects etc.. that relate together within each body 
y* “body” can mean each individual human body ( which may be seen as a whole universe that each of us rule over in a god-like supreme-being way, OR ELSE the body of the human family, or for followers of Jesus, as I am, the body of Christ, both of which are made of a much smaller, though still a large number, of individuals. Each of these labelled groupings having lost much of its working towards a bigger common goal or order of being.
e* the left hemisphere of the single (two hemisphered) human brain, that relates data to its virtual reality or internal model of the world that thereby allows to to understand complex events and predict likely future ones, but which also needs to be able to be overridden or vetoed by the other ("right") hemisphere which relates us to the actual world at large.
w* in the words of Yeshua’s Ambassador (Apostle) Paul: “So we do not lose heart. Even though our outer nature is wasting away, our inner nature is being renewed day by day. For our slight, momentary affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all measure, because we look not at what can be seen but at what cannot be seen, for what can be seen is temporary, but what cannot be seen is eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:16-18 NRSV)

2026-03-01

Growing up!


(starts with bowing down)



Dear Father, I am sixty six years old.

So now, in one more year I can retire.

Thus by most counts, I wouldn’t be too bold

to think that I’m a grown up. I’m a sire.


I’ve sired 6 living offspring on this Earth.

And have begun to learn to love from you.

But in that sense, I've hardly grown since birth.

And “Quite Mature” ’s a title I'd eschew.


Because  I'm learning how to tell the truth.

And hearing my own self-talk now I know

what you have always known - you don’t need proof!

Compared to your age, I'm still foetal. So


this makes sense of what Jesus said about

the reign of God belonging only to 

those who are little children. None are louts

or adolescents, adults with the view 


of centuries, millenia or such.

I have to start my growth by learning truth

in inmost parts, in spirit*, heart’s own hutch

for living treasure, inside my tent “roof”.


So as a little child I call you now: 

My Abba, Daddy, truest one who knows:

what ever’s worth the knowing or somehow,

whoever will be loving, where love grows


within them as a plant grows in the soil.

The seed of God’s been planted in this soul*

and as it grows the ground is like to boil,

& give birth then, a crop that makes more whole.




Footnotes

t* “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. [11] Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. [12] Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me… .
[17] My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise. (Psalms 51:10-12, 17 NIVUK)

l* “No-one who is born of God will continue to sin, because God’s seed remains in them; they cannot go on sinning, because they have been born of God.” (1 John 3:9 NIVUK);  “For you have been born again, not of perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God. For, ‘All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord endures for ever.’ And this is the word that was preached to you. (1 Peter 1:23-25 NIVUK); “Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.” (2 Peter 1:4 NIVUK)